Details |
Fatimah Lane Poem
I’ve learned that no matter how hard life seems there’s always something to be learned from the negative experiences in the end.
I’ve learned that you never really know someone until you’ve lived with them.
I’ve learned that just because someone says they care for you doesn’t necessarily make them your friend.
I’ve learned that you can’t make someone love you no matter how much you care for them.
I’ve learned that it’s okay to be alone just as long as you’re not lonely to the point of having suicidal tendencies.
I’ve learned that you alone can define your destiny.
I’m learning to accept others as they are and to live my life in deep humility.
I’m learning to forgive others who have offended me no matter how much the situation infuriates me.
And of course I’ll never forget what they did to me,
But at least we can be civil to each other and exist harmoniously.
I’m learning that procrastination is unacceptable and that with my life I need to be more responsible.
I’ve learned that common sense is not something that everyone has.
And I’m learning to stop behaving as if my patience and nerves are made of thinly paned glass.
I’ve learned to take everything to God in prayer.
And I’ve learned to be patient and wait for His answers because I know for me He cares.
I’m trying to forgive my father for the times he should have been there.
He’ll never know how his negligence showed me how much he really cared.
I’m learning how to write my expressive thoughts down.
Now my frustrations don’t build up so much and they’re no longer weighing on my heart now.
I’ve learned that life can sometimes be as hard as we make it.
And I’m learning that people can really get under my skin and sometimes I just have to swallow my pride and take it.
And that doesn’t make me a punk at all.
It just reinforces my faith in God cause I know He’ll be there for me when I stumble or fall.
I’m learning how to be a better daughter and sister.
Even though my mom and Courtney don’t know, there are times when I really do miss them.
I’m learning to accept that my family has issues and that they are not perfect.
And when they do and say hateful things to each other to not even indulge it.
Life’s short but the journey is long.
God still has plenty more lessons for me to learn.
Copyright © Fatimah Lane | Year Posted 2005
|
Details |
Fatimah Lane Poem
For all the times you made promises you had no intention of keeping,
For all the times I needed you with me instead of out with your funky women,
For all the times you made me feel insignificant and unimportant.
This ones for you.
For all the times you boldly took it upon yourself to brag about me and my achievements,
For all the times you should have been staying instead of leaving,
For all the times you neglected me and left my heart hurting.
This ones for you.
I always felt cheated in life by your lack of support,
And no matter how much my mother tried to fill your shoes, the fact that you weren’t there really hurt.
I am 25 years old and you still treat me like you weren’t the man who helped bring me life on this earth.
Your neglectful ways really affected me years ago but I thank you because I now understand, respect, and honor my mother’s worth.
She did everything you were supposed to do.
She loved me unselfishly and taught me the real meaning of “to thine own self be true”.
She did everything for me that you as my father were supposed to do.
Yeah you sent the checks, but that little bit of change you really could have kept.
It could never compensate your responsibility to me, but that’s something you obviously failed to see.
Now my mother’s a humble and forgiving person so she’s already forgiven you.
And of course she encourages me to, but I tell her that’s just something I can not do.
You’ll never understand what harm years of neglect and selfishness can do.
I’m a grown woman and you’re still making promises to me and never coming through.
What kind of person neglects his only daughter, then up and raises the child of another?
Did you think that would make-up for the father you should have been?
You might as well drop that idea and start all over again.
Until you make amends with me, peaceful is something your life will never be.
I don’t wish you harm because I’m not a hateful person,
But I have so much animosity towards you that loving and caring for you feels like the heaviest burden.
It’s all for the better though cause God’s blessed me with a father figure that’s been long over due.
He gives all the love and support you’ve failed to.
He encourages me in everything I endeavor to do and he’s there even when things fall through.
So maybe God has provided me a way to forgive you.
Maybe that’s what part two of this poem will turn into.
Until then dad, for all the fathering you didn’t do, This ones for you.
Copyright © Fatimah Lane | Year Posted 2005
|
Details |
Fatimah Lane Poem
Hey, I thought of you today.
I wondered how you were feeling and if you were having a good day.
I wanted your day to be blessed in every possible way.
I know that life gets rough
And sometimes our outer armor alone just isn’t enough.
I prayed for you today.
I prayed that God would bless and keep you from all hurt, harm, and danger.
Even though lately you’ve been treating me like a stranger.
I asked God to heal you all the way down to your soul.
I know you’re going through a rough time right now but if you put your faith in Him, He’ll make you whole.
I know your heart still has a void
And I’m praying that He fills it up until it’s overflowing with love and endless joy.
I love you today.
I love your creative mind.
And how even when our thoughts don’t align you always respect mine.
Spending time with you is like indulging in a pleasantly palatable goblet of fine white wine.
These were just some thoughts floating through my mind,
But they are more importantly the reason why;
I thought of you today,
I prayed for you today,
I love you today.
And that was all I called to say.
Copyright © Fatimah Lane | Year Posted 2005
|