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Brandi Cunerty Poem
A mother's love
A colorful array of emotions and thoughts too hard to describe.
Running rampant is a battlefield in my heart and in my mind.
Laying deep within, resides an unconditional kind of love.
An absolute blessing, one that can only be sent from above.
A bond in which is a child I was unfairly deprived. Although it was something I longed and prayed for a majority of my life.
Undoubtedly I knew I'd one day bear my own precious gifts
Children, beautiful souls, that I gave my life an actual reason to be lived.
Sometimes life has different plans we'd otherwise not have foreseen.
UPS and Downs, highs and lows, and all the in between.
When the mother is without her child It's unto a country without any land.
A synonym for knowledge, when you just do not understand!
To have a heart, without a single heartbeat.
Or even the existence of God, without any real belief. Point in fact, without one thing, there cannot be the other.
So in the same regard, without your children, you feel defeated as a mother.
Basically what I'm trying to explain here today is ....
that I'm full of regret, scared, broken, and afraid!
I know when I'm absent today, It only brings them sorrow
As well as how I work on myself today, greatly affects their tomorrow.
Motherhood is one of life's most rewarding job of all! Standing up to become the best version of you,no matter how many times you fall.
Because really,...how can you be ANYTHING to your kids when.....
You are ultimately NOTHING to yourself in the end!
Copyright © Brandi Cunerty | Year Posted 2023
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Brandi Cunerty Poem
too many thoughts in my head.
oh why oh why can't I just sleep instead.
round and round circle these thoughts with in me
and oh how i wish my head could be empty
but instead I am stuck thinking about all the thoughts that I think
so many in fact I can't think before I speak
if only I could express the colorful variables i have in my brain
but even then I don't think our levels would be the same.
we all are unique individuals with our own thought process
so while u sit back and enjoy yours and I'll be entangled in mine never the less.
cheers to thinking and all that's involved
goodnight , my friend i think my problem was just solved.
Brandi nicole
Copyright © Brandi Cunerty | Year Posted 2023
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Brandi Cunerty Poem
My life
Just To inform anyone who will listen or care
since seemingly my words are just about pointless spouts of hot air
when I try to conversate it gets turned all Topsy turvy which happens to annoy those I love and some say it's unnerving
our emotions we should be in control of completely
yet it's one of the many things I've not yet mastered you see
more lost now that I'm trying to be found
screaming out, yet the silence lacks a signal of sound judgments cloudy and definitely been unclear
although I've made the most progress ever just in this last year
yes I'm prone to mistakes repetitious overdue or of wrongs
amends only mean So much, can't keep singing that same old song
There were times I was certain of things , yetothers claimed it wasn't real
yet the persistent thinking consumed me in what i say and what i do and feel
Adding more and more complication than they're ever needed to be
I need more help than one person can give , and I need to get back myself, honestly.
never having any positive influence of my own
chaos, uncertainty. and past trama have left me an adult but not grown
Always adds up to the same predicament try after try
All the result of when I refuse to make my own life mine
Brandi nicole
IN REGARDS TO life, love and catastrophe, through the eyes of a person with B.P.D
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Brandi Cunerty Poem
"LUCID DREAMS"-
Sorting out these ever pressing thoughts that are QUITE overwhelming,
As I try to piece together a puzzle, where the picture on the box is clearly missing!
Some things add up to nothing,a reality proven often times so unreal,
Looking Through the Looking Glass yet the picture remains unclear.
My world ,and yours, are definitely so inconsistent. Reality is light that only flickers in the distance. Deciphering fact from fiction,
As well as struggling with addiction.
Rebuilding a decent human being with all these tiny pieces of a heart.
Which come to think of it, probably never even was a whole from the start!
Road blocks and stop signs, are distractions to me once again.
Reality often slips my mind, becoming like a long lost friend.
If I want to see things to change, I have to change how I see things.
Life is a like a lucid dream, where perception evades me.
How can we stay true, in a world full of so much deception?
Dreams of happiness is what I'm aiming for, but it's hard to look at my own reflection !
Big Ideas, plans, and goals, all drawn up with good intent.
Sometimes I need someone to help me reinvent.
This person that I am, yet I also am so unsure of.
Who I've become, from where I was all because....
Of shattered pieces of a soul that is desperate to start anew.
Just a few complications when trying invision what i want to do.
I see a version of me I WANT to be, with out a shadow of a doubt.
BUT I'LL need faith in God and prayer, cus that's what it's all about!
Absorbing, changing, and learning as I go.
Aiming to become my best, once again a whole.
Aligning my inner being, with the light that shines from within my soul ..
So, here I go as I continue on....
in this lucid dream of life and fun
Letting go but relax... because this time ,Gods in control!
-"LUCID DREAMS"-
BY BRANDI CUNERTY
Copyright © Brandi Cunerty | Year Posted 2023
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