A Mother's Love

A mother's love A colorful array of emotions and thoughts too hard to describe. Running rampant is a battlefield in my heart and in my mind. Laying deep within, resides an unconditional kind of love. An absolute blessing, one that can only be sent from above. A bond in which is a child I was unfairly deprived. Although it was something I longed and prayed for a majority of my life. Undoubtedly I knew I'd one day bear my own precious gifts Children, beautiful souls, that I gave my life an actual reason to be lived. Sometimes life has different plans we'd otherwise not have foreseen. UPS and Downs, highs and lows, and all the in between. When the mother is without her child It's unto a country without any land. A synonym for knowledge, when you just do not understand! To have a heart, without a single heartbeat. Or even the existence of God, without any real belief. Point in fact, without one thing, there cannot be the other. So in the same regard, without your children, you feel defeated as a mother. Basically what I'm trying to explain here today is .... that I'm full of regret, scared, broken, and afraid! I know when I'm absent today, It only brings them sorrow As well as how I work on myself today, greatly affects their tomorrow. Motherhood is one of life's most rewarding job of all! Standing up to become the best version of you,no matter how many times you fall. Because really,...how can you be ANYTHING to your kids when..... You are ultimately NOTHING to yourself in the end!