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Karly Parker Poem
I sit here at the waters edge,
I flip a coin and watch it fly.
Heads, you're in love with me,
Tails, you lied.
On one side I'm your soul mate,
you say without me you would die.
you say how much you love me,
you say you'll never leave my side.
On the other side you really hurt me,
you always make me cry.
I'm not sure you'd even care,
if I left and said goodbye.
You broke my heart in pieces,
I will never be the same.
Then you look me in the eyes,
and say I'm your everything.
Tears run down my face.
I don't know what I should do.
fifty percent chance you love me,
fifty percent chance we're doomed.
As I sit here at the waters edge,
I flip the coin way up high.
Knowing if it's Heads, you love me,
and if it's Tails, you lied.
As it flies through the air,
I turn and walk away.
I'll never look back at that coin,
I don't want to know what it will say.
Copyright © Karly Parker | Year Posted 2011
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Karly Parker Poem
If I’m not the reason you smile,
if a relationship isn’t your style,
if loving me is a chore,
and if you don’t love me more and more. . .
then I’ll walk out your open door.
If I’m not on your mind all day,
If I’m not your everything,
If you don’t need me every night,
laying beside you holding you tight. . .
Then you don’t need me in your life.
If I don’t complete your world,
If the thought of me leaving isn’t absurd,
If loving me is hard on you,
If you say you don’t know what to do. . .
Then I will walk away from you.
If you have more fun without me there,
If forever isn’t in your prayer,
If you feel like I’m a waste time,
If you are not completely and totally mine. . .
Then you won’t care if I leave your life.
Even though it will break my heart,
Even though it will tear me apart,
If I’m not your heart and soul,
Then it’s time for me to turn and go. . .
Copyright © Karly Parker | Year Posted 2011
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Karly Parker Poem
You appeared in my life
when I was holding the knife
you discovered me at my worst
and now you’re paying the price
You got the warning first
I said I couldn’t quench your thirst
I told you the honest truth
but you didn’t believe in the curse
My emotions have been drained
my thoughts on love have changed
I don’t feel the way I used to
I am not the same
The nightmare is still so real
pain is what I feel
my smile has been painted
my heart has not healed
Tears sting my eyes
laughing is my disguise
I’m so sorry that you’re here
watching me break my ties
I’m hurting and I’m bleeding
I’m trying and succeeding
he crushed my heart in his hand
but yes, I’m still breathing
Pain has made me convert
to not believing love works
I’m so sorry that I’m broken
I’m so sorry that I’m hurt
You’re amazing in every way
you don’t deserve any pain
I’m so sorry that this hurts
I’ll be better someday
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Karly Parker Poem
There’s a knife in my chest
which makes it hard to take a breath
suffocation feels quite common
when there has been a death
It feels empty and cold
deep inside my bones
in me there’s no faith left
my heart is now stone
You want me to love you
you need me to need you
I don’t have any trust
I don’t want to mislead you
I carved a picture on my ribs
about the way I was going to live
I carved a picture on my wrist
a picture I’ve seen for years
You think it’s not fair
that I’m emotionally impaired
but there’s no way you’ll understand
unless you have been there
But I hold my head up high
I grit my teeth and look to the sky
my advice, don’t get too close
as you pull your body to mine
My new life can now begin
weakness has come to an end
I’m sorry I’m so guarded
but I won’t go through that again
There is a scar in my soul
I have darkness I can’t control
but I’ll stand up once again
because I’m stronger than before
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Karly Parker Poem
It will break you in half,
It will turn you to ash,
It will save your life,
Your life it will crash.
It won't make you cry,
It will keep you alive,
It will rip you to pieces,
It will help you survive.
It will cause you pain,
Love you will not gain,
It will keep you safe,
It will always be rain.
It will protect your heart,
It can be a new start,
It will hurt with no end,
Two people it can part.
It can poison your mind,
It can make you go blind,
It’s Heaven and Hell,
It’s killing me inside . . . . fear can ruin your life.
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Karly Parker Poem
In my darkened quiet room
I lay here all alone
no one here beside me
no one on the phone
My own hand wipes my tears
because there’s no one else around
my head hits my hands
my knees hit the ground
Loneliness is painful
it’s dark, cruel, and cold
it slowly scars your mind
it gets deep inside your soul
It’s like a field with missing flowers
it’s like a sky with darkened clouds
it’s like a never ending ocean
it’s like your screaming with no sound
There’s no one here beside me
I’m completely on my own
you can’t imagine how this hurts
to be this alone
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There is just something about you
that scares me to death
what if I get hurt again
what if I take that step
Your words are so beautiful
you speak with confidence
what if they're all lies
what if you fail the test
There's something in your eyes
that I can not explain
what if I take your hand
and all there is is pain
You're very good with words
you know exactly what to say
so what if I believe you
and tomorrow things change
You say you won't hurt me
you want to gain my trust
what if I just let go
and all it is is lust
What if it's not worth the risk
what if I'm scared of how I feel
What happens if you're lying
and none of this is real
I have my wall built high
I'm guarded you can see
what if I walked away
would you come after me
what if I can't trust
what if I can't let go
What if I'm too far gone
and there's too much damage in my soul
. . . . or what if I take your hand
and trust the stars above
that you will treat me right
what if I fall in love
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I remember how it felt
to love the cards your dealt
to live in a fantasy
to have your heart melt.
I remember how I believed
that you would never leave
I was blind at the time
but I would soon see.
I remember how you lied
I remember how I cried
when you walked away from me
you left me barely alive.
I remember all the pain
I couldn't even say your name
I remember how it hurt
it may never go away.
I remember taking a breath
taking tiny little steps
towards erasing your memory
towards mending what's left.
I remember how it felt
to hate the cards your dealt
to live in a nightmare
to have your world melt.
I'll never forget what you did
I'll never forget how I slid
into a world of complete darkness
and how I stood back up again.
I'll never go through that
it was my first and my last
I am a different person now
you are now only in my past.
I remember how I cried
how a part of me died
how you almost ended me
I remember. . . . how I survived.
Copyright © Karly Parker | Year Posted 2011
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