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Jessica Kear Poem
Your Distance is confusing
as you speak I know
there is so much more to be told.
Looking through your eyes
past that empty look
is hard to see
For you have closed your doors
and tuned your back on the world
Though you say nothing is wrong
and that its tears of happiness
you say you cry
But your windows are darkened
so full or uncertanity
I only wish you would
let me see through
Your mind,it works
mysteriously as those
of a magicians secrets
not wanting anyone to know
the truth behind it all
Because to do so
would only unmask
what has been hidding beneath
the imposter you have become
Looking for that easy way out
you always thought you would find
you run from a past
you say you want to forget
because of the pain
that was inflicted upon you
At the same time
you refuse to let go
of the memories
and that dark past
that has got best of you
and still haunts your mind
Because the trust you once had
was taken from you,and lost,
unable to restore itself
to its fullest
turning you into
your own worst enemy
you hesitste to even think
about the future
and what happiness you may find
You walk arround
with this fake smile
but I know better
I can see right through you
I've been there before
I use to be just like you
not knowing how
or where to begin
to pick up the pieces
and get on with the life
I once knew
before I hit rock bottom
But if you fill me
with your worry
bathe me in your dark light
I shall recouperate
knowing that I have you
and that I have loved you
past your pain
Copyright © Jessica Kear | Year Posted 2008
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Jessica Kear Poem
Who is this stranger that stairs back at me
as I look into the mirror each day
Where did she come from
and what does she want from me
This isn't the same girl that I have known all of my life
There is someting different about her
She looks lost and alone
unsure where it is her life is headed
I dont like this girl I see
She has taken over my life
tearing it apart
How do I get rid of her sending her back
where she came from
How do I tell her that no one wants her around
and that she has caused
too many problems in my life
I want things to go back to the way they once were
before she came into my life
Why can't the mirror just lie to me
showing me what it is that I want and need to see
because sometimes the truth is just too hard to face
Maybe I can keep on pretending that everything is ok
that my life could not be more perfect
But then I would just be fooling myself
Maybe it would be better that way
Life would be alot easier
With every laugh and smile I fake
no one would even realize anything is wrong
That is that way I want it to be
It is the only way to keep the world
from seeing right through me
I refuse to let anyone know my pain
To do so would mean to let someone in
and no good could come of that
Whats done is done
There is no way to fix the broken
No glue is gonna put these peices back in place
I have accepted that and I have learned to deal with it
so I sheild myself from the world
only to protect what is left of the real me
so everyone may see
I am and ever will be completly borken.
Copyright © Jessica Kear | Year Posted 2008
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Jessica Kear Poem
How did I let myself get to this point
the point of no return
of knowing who I am
or where it is I belong in this world
I was too blind not to see
that he did everything in his power
doing his best to try and break me
seeking out my weakness
and used it against me
I should of been stronger than him
and not let him see through me
enough to know that he had the upper hand
I should not have fell apart
like he knew that I would
what's done is done
so how do I get it all back,
the sanity that once kept me alive
instead I am dead and empty inside
how does one get past the pain
so deeply inflicted with scars
that may never go away
leaving you cold and bitter
unable to let another soul back in
his lies and deceit has turned me
into a different person
a person I have become to despise
is like I have become my own worst enemy
making me not know who I am anymore
I don't think I want to know myself
because of the person I have become
I have hit rock bottom only lower
its like there's rock bottom
fifty feet of crap and then theres me
why did I do this to myself
I should have known better
I was so blind that I did not see
the signs that were right in front of me
I did this to myself
I am the one to blame
for letting it go on as long as it did
so now I must find my own way back alone
no stopping to ask for directions
back to the world I had left behind
the world I have been away from for far too long
on my journey to finding myself
and restoring it to the way I use to be
when I do return I hope to be a knew person
change in more ways than one for the better
leaving all the ghost's from my past a faded memory
never again will I travel down that road again
from then on I shall hold my head high
walk into my future with my eyes open
and be blinded by his lies never more
Copyright © Jessica Kear | Year Posted 2008
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