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Blinded By Lies Never More

How did I let myself get to this point
the point of no return 
of knowing who I am
or where it is I belong in this world
I was too blind not to see 
that  he did everything in his power
doing his best to try and break me
seeking out my weakness 
and used it against me
I should of been stronger than him 
and not let him see through me 
enough to know that he had the upper hand
I should not have fell apart 
like he knew that I would
what's done is done 
so how do I get it all back,
the sanity that once kept me alive
instead I am dead and empty inside
how does one get past the pain
so deeply inflicted with scars
that may never go away
leaving you cold and bitter
unable to let another soul back in
his lies and deceit has turned me 
into a different person 
a person I have become to despise 
is like I have become my own worst enemy 
making me not know who I am anymore
I don't think I want to know myself
because of the person I have become
I have hit rock bottom only lower
its like there's rock bottom 
fifty feet of crap and then theres me
why did I do this to myself
I should have known better 
I was so blind that I did not see
the signs that were right in front of me
I did this to myself
I am the one to blame 
for letting it go on as long as it did
so now I must find my own way back alone
no stopping to ask for directions 
back to the world I had left behind
the world I have been away from for far too long
on my journey to finding myself 
and restoring it to the way I use to be
when I do return I hope to be a knew person
change in more ways than one for the better
leaving all the ghost's  from my past  a faded memory
never again will I travel down that road again 
from then on I shall hold my head high
walk into my future with my eyes open
and be blinded by his lies never more

Copyright © Jessica Kear | Year Posted 2008

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