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Carolina Dasilva Poem
I lay here without feeling and emotion
a glass wall surrounding me
Not allowing me to speak or express this hate inside me
I crash into these very walls
Tears in my eyes
Wishing my life had gave me an opportunity
A chance to be in a different mind
Soon I would fade away
For I can no longer lay in this cell
As I decay with the infinite time of life
Copyright © Carolina Dasilva | Year Posted 2008
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Carolina Dasilva Poem
Shall I speak the words that have been silent for so long
Or shall I keep them as secrets and not go beyond
For It builds up upon my every dreams
A burst of memories I cannot contain
Or shall I escape this truth
Never come back to reality and live in fear and agony
Not a soul could listen to my memories
As If I'm my only friend and my own worst enemy
For this trust is buried in me
I have lost the will to speak and share the very emotions
That have been kept secrets for this long
To share the laughter and the positive times
Its been hard today
Not being able to admit my thoughts
I shall await
Soon I will speak out
With all my doubts
And happy emotions
Soon to escape the wrath and confusion
Its my final day
Copyright © Carolina Dasilva | Year Posted 2008
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Carolina Dasilva Poem
At times I rather not say a word
At times I wish I was never heard
Mistakes wouldn't be noticed
Problems never remembered
Screams and hostility kept from bursting
Its easier to remain in silence
Never to awaken to the reality of the world
Pertaining to the disasters and consequences
All occuring with just one word
I shall remain a ghost to avoid and anger at most
Releiving your insecurities
Returning to this state of mind
This apology has been ignored
And thrown out from your door
If there were no words
This would have been different
I would see your face again
We would be together
Never allowing this curse to defeat our friendship
Our last chance in happiness
Words can be our enemies
and at times your friend
With the beautiful meanings making you smile and dream
Or it could destroy you causing deaths and suffering
For I have experienced this anger and asked myself questions
What does a work really mean?
SHould it make you cry and gleam into the saddened world
Or is it just a word with no meaning?
I cannot be hurt by them
Not destroyed by the agony and sickenig emotion
I make this word my own
And now I've shown my immortality
With this belief I am not heading towards destruction
but success and trust in myself
and the life ahead of me!!!!!!!!
I shall never let these words hurt me
For I have looked far deeper into them than anyone has seen
Copyright © Carolina Dasilva | Year Posted 2008
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Carolina Dasilva Poem
Am I able to express my feelings
Or shall I seal my lips
In horror with the shredding memories and failures of this heart
Never letting it speak out
Bottled up with emotions that are stored in the depth of my soul
Is it possible to stop this watch from ticking
Making my time pause in an infinite world and future
Is this being able to withstand the confusion
As rapid minutes turn into hours and days
Leaving this agony to speak to burst away
Am I able to show how my hurtful soul can be reborn again
Able to love and share the beauty and joy and this magical feeling
Yet I'm reserved to this
scared of the outcome and negativity
Love has been shown in such mystical ways
believed to make you float during your lasting days
Or can it tear you apart and bury you in sadness
For I have faith in this love
Even though it has been teared away from me
Allowed to break with the shattering pieces in sadness
Its been hard to see you everyday
Gazing at your eyes
Wishing you knew about mine
I can't react
So I must wait as an echo
Until you open your heart freeing your thoughts
And then I can allow myself to open mine
I could forever wait for this response
Unable to admit my thoughts
So I stay in silence
For I can't make a sound
Sealed forever more in the darkness of my heart
Copyright © Carolina Dasilva | Year Posted 2008
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Carolina Dasilva Poem
Awakened to the darkened room
Not knowing where I am
Locked up in every corner
Trying to escape and shatter the light
Surrounded by agony
Clouded with anger and frustration
In order to escape the hell that
had locked me up in despair
Emotionless and struggling for air
No space to move but just
Worries and nightmares
For I have just fought with this evil for too long
Losing the abilities to move and communicate
My dreams are not heard
This frustration and worry building up on me
Not knowing where to go
How to move and react to the images around me
Sealed in all four corners
by the enemy itself
Running around the same space
Seeing my shadows
and hearing the ghost inside of me
I've been taken
To this dark world
which I know nothing about
and here I lay in desperate need
Unwinding my thoughts and questions buried in me
Not knowing how to finally escape
I'm here for eternity
I'm dead
Copyright © Carolina Dasilva | Year Posted 2008
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Carolina Dasilva Poem
These musical notes follow me in my every life
I cannot be apart from them for destruction will occur
And sadness will arise
My life had been these musical figures and sounds
In my mind and sleeping nights
For this will last for eternity
The beautiful melody which plays at my very steps in life
This obsession had lead me to success
These fingers have done their best
Making sounds that take you into your dreams
Of happiness
and non terminating balance
For I can never give up my dream
Of being the tranquil wave of sound
Inspirational music and glory of recovery
Copyright © Carolina Dasilva | Year Posted 2008
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Carolina Dasilva Poem
Gazing at the stars at night
Imagining what it would be like
If I only had the power to write my future
Just how words in a poem are written as a story
Never facing the hatred and aggression of the world
Never shedding a tear in my eyes
Surely to never face disappointment
Or lies in life
Is this idea such a glory
Or destruction in lies
For it has given all the positive
and never challenged us in a fight
For we never will suffer like they are now
Living life in glory
Having and infinite possibility
with no bleeding tears
and cries
Would this feeling be so natural
Presuming our death and rebirth
Or is it a fantasy giving us much worse
So would you rather live a story
Or have everything pass
With unexpected chapters
And never ending gasps
So ask yourself this question
Having your will in mystery
And living your life at hands
Without a recant
Copyright © Carolina Dasilva | Year Posted 2008
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Carolina Dasilva Poem
The day ends
The darkness pours out
You close your eyes
Not knowing you have died
Speaking out to the world
Yet not moving
Paralyzed in your tomb
Escaping the knife
For he has come to kill
And so you have died
Copyright © Carolina Dasilva | Year Posted 2008
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