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Crystal Floyd Poem
beginning to lose her patience;
short-tempered quite frequently no one knows, for she goes unnoticed
not one has seen the flame once so small for now its a blazing and raging fire within. she remains silent. only to concentrate solely on her journey at hand. with daily strength and success for almost a year now. for she is true to herself on the inside and out; that's all that matters to her is that she stays true to herself. what people may think of her, or assume about her, or are skeptical about her, or why they may doubt her, or why they question to themselves about her - she has not a care for; false thoughts and untrue accusations honestly are none of her concern for if she did care, she'd be allowing the enemy to take over her thoughts in her mind she's only concerned about herself and her journey. she tries not to care; but deep down when she's alone she cries herself to sleep each night. the outside no longer cares; inside her heart begins to harden once again, starts to shut out the world completely;
eventually, there will no longer be hurt, always being interrupted in her speaking,her thought or idea is wrong they say. being cut short in every encounter;rage is beginning to burn brightly, the harden heart; will reveal the truth about her pain those have caused her. her soul will be set free.
avoid her, cut her short, no longer caring to speak to her; or to hear from her anymore. a question, a thought, or an idea, even those encounters are practically nonexistent in her world;
as brief as a lightning strike her soul begins to show from behind those eyes opened wide, she can see the light fading quickly;for in beginning it to burn brightly now in her eyes, she can see that it's going out. for when she started this journey she began to be happy again, that for many years happiness was absent in her life. until she found a new way, a journey that was beginning to give her meaning,
a purpose, she had meaning in her life. although she continues to be successful, for she has not had a stumble, a slip, or a fall since day one and even today there is still none.
there are NO intentions or a desire to slip, to stumble, or to fall but to keep moving forward as she has been since the beginning of her journey. a step at a time, a prayer at a time, still learning,
still growing in faith, still has love, the light that once began to glow is now being snuffed out by: the unasked question that they can't answer, the look from others doubting eye, a grapevine statement, an accusation,
an assumption that others think to be true. the wildfire that started to burn brightly within her is now just a glow being snuffed out by those around her!
why? the fire of happiness is unknowingly causing her to begin to harden her heart all over again after so many stepping stones that have been reached along her journeyed path.
Does she begin to feel what's the point? if they put out the flame, will she still have a meaning, a purpose the situation is being threatened. not one of them is willing to ask her the question that they have on the tip of their tongues. they would rather doubt, question themselves, assume things, which must be true...think again...ask the situation. her journey is a successful one; she still tries to help others: the good, the bad, and the ugly it's an act of kindness, she talks to everyone still from all walks of life.
for she does not judge others even as they judge her, she lends an ear where it's needed, she just wants someone to listen, or to lend her ear to listen to someone, or to lend a helping hand in their time of need, that's not what others see, they see you with someone, somewhere, they don't see eye to eye with so, they assume and accuse she must be a failure... saw her or what they thought was a bad situation when all she's been doing is lending an ear or a helping hand to someone in their time of need. someone somewhere could always use a hand when someone is down on their luck in all walks of life whether they are one of the good, the bad, or the ugly. she sees good in every heart.
Copyright © Crystal Floyd | Year Posted 2019
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Crystal Floyd Poem
Curiosity, what was it again that made her they're off the steady beaten and path?
in the sense of going off into a strange place that she'd never been to be for, was it just sheer curiosity that made her wander off, or was it just out of her sense of adventure that made her go to the places she'd never been to just to see if there was new things to explore and investigate, and learn? She always wanted to find the unique not the common. Thanks unique things were they meant to be learned or found if so, were they meant for her to seek out and find? She has a heart of gold and as thick as steel...so no harm would be brought to her as she curiously and slowly at first began a to learn, seek, and find what was awaiting her in the adventures to come.
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All she really wanted to do was to live her life the way she wanted to live, not the way the protectors thought she should.
She wanted to be set free from the bonds that bound her to the ground.
Freedom is what she wanted to soar like an eagle, to explore the world outside of her unwanted secure safe haven.
Explore, learn, experience life, her life on her terms.
Explore the unknown world near and far outside of the only world she's known. She needs to crush the bonds that bind her and prove to all she is capable of living a healthy and happy life.
Just to let her breathe and experience life.
She's been told what, where, how, and who to associate with since the beginning of time, she's ready to destory the bubble that the protectors have formed around her over the years for her own protection they say...
She just wants to experience the outside world herself. To see the world as it is and to meet people from all walks of life.
She must have a first hand experience not just through books, because you can only learn so much from books, but to be able to experience it first hand and to feel that awe of excitement while she experiences the wonders of the world as others have done
Her overbearing protectors ask, ' Where will go? Where will you stay? What will you eat? For you have no money, so they ask How will you achieve your travels when you have nothing?'
Thinking to herself never a spoken idea or thought to her protectors for they shoot her down with arrows every time, so why say a word at all? When she can remain happy in her thoughts by remaining silent as a lamb.
The protectors tell her to get her head out of the clouds, stop that daydreaming, that's nonsense, you're being foolish with these thoughts and ideas. For it will only bring you sorrow and grief to you.
They act as though she's a helpless lamb who cannot defend for herself without them, when in all actual reality they're suffocating her.
The protectors tell her it's a waste of time that it's a cold, cruel world out there that's why she must remain where she is and to do as she is told to remain safe and secure.
For they tell her if she leaves she will lose everything that the protectors have worked so hard to give her a life, a secure life. If she leaves the protectors she will have nothing, she will leave with nothing, and when she fails she will come back with nothing, but she's willing to take that chance in order for her to live her life to the fullest potential.
The life that she was meant to have, a life of a newfound freedom. Adventures lie ahead in her new way of life that she has chosen for herself and therefore to be an adventurous young woman she will learn and experience all the excitement that awaits her in the unknown outside world.
Copyright © Crystal Floyd | Year Posted 2019
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She goes to ultimate lengths to reach her dreams because she was born to spread her wings and fly. Nothing could ever stop her now since she's found a new way to live because over the past year; the possibilities have become limitless, for the sky is her limit. She looks like an ordinary girl, to those around her, they would say she did ordinary every day things, talked to ordinary people, but in her heart a fire burned bright, she's achieved so much in this new life, miracles can be seen and are working within her, and through her, continusly and developing in her life for the better, she's always been one step ahead of those around her wheather anyone notices or not she has accomplished so much, but to ordinary people it may seem just like an ordinary thing that she accomplished, but to her it is a mile stone reached, her dreams are possible no matter what people say or think, she has changed her life for the better. The twinkle in her eyes, is a sign to others that she is different, happy, she's been blessed with a second chance, because she does it one day at a time.
Copyright © Crystal Floyd | Year Posted 2019
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