It doesn't make sense, and it doesn't seem right. How can one mislead decision, define the rest of my life. How can a choice that i made, so long ago, still effect me today and takes such a toll. I guess the regret I feel alone, just doesn't come close. And the place I once called home, is what I miss the most. But this is my home now, for years to come. As each day passes with a setting sun. So what I wouldn't do, to change the past. All the hurt I've caused, all the lives I've crashed. As I lay among the wreckage, I can't help but feel ashamed. And I know there's no one else but me, I'm the only one to blame. It's the choices that I've made, that have brought me here. And it's my choices I have to change, that much is clear. So with the days of my future, I pay for my past. And there's no time like the present, that seems to go so fast. But this place where they put me, it just doesn't reform. It's like I've been locked away, and in hell I'm reborn. These bars are the flames that keep me in. And I'd die to feel the rain, of freedom again. But like I said before,it just doesn't seem right. It's another day passing, wasting my life.
Categories:
wasting away, prison,
Form: Prose
All my time,
And all of my skills.
My teeth, my hair,
And remaining muscle.
All my intelligence
And all of my ideas.
Wasting away.
All the things I tell myself.
The things I tell my friends.
I've even told my instruments
That they would receive more attention.
No matter what I tell anyone,
The result remains the same.
Wasting away.
My growth is stunted.
Trapped in a box.
More time continues on,
Without ever looking back.
Locked inside without a key,
Escape seems so unreal.
Wasting away.
Dwelling on childish DREAMS,
Sitting while being able to RUN,
Wishing instead of DOING,
Starving for something to CHANGE,
Listening to songs that can be PLAYED,
Continuing my actions with no REMORSE,
Waiting for my serving of DISCIPLINE.
All of this.
Inside my head.
While I sit in this chair.
Wasting away.
Wasting. Away.
Categories:
wasting away, life
Form: Free verse
Sometimes you have those moments
When you know you should be happy
But all you can do is cry
Drop to your knees
And weep
Weep until there are no tears left
And your eyes are bloodshot and red
Your chest is tight and heavy
You weeze a little with every breath
And your heart beats so slow and quietly you question that it's beating at all
Your ears hear the sounds of the world
But only hold onto the sounds of hate, and misery
Every breath letting a little bit of your soul
That is lying inside of you
Half dead, half alive, not knowing what to do with itself
Just wasting away, wasting away
Sometimes you have those moments
Categories:
wasting away, depression, life
Form: Free verse
Here I wait, only for my love.
Still I feel hate, Im so close to the edge, do you dare shove?
Hope is wasting away, faith is failing.
Sorrow will always stay, my mind is derailing.
As she held out my heart, Transfixed by her.
I watched it fall apart, I cannot move further.
But you promised, everything in return.
Not like I wished, YOU WATCHED ME BURN.
You're dancing on my grave, and dancing in the rain.
You dont wish to save, just to extend the pain.
Why do you cry, every time I fall?
Every time I die, you hear my call.
I ask why, were you the on who saw?
Blood turns velvet, as it runs forever free.
Why does God let, sorrow happen to me?
As misery ways down your eyes, do you sleep?
Do you hush your cries, and continue to weep?
Take my hand, I mean everything to you.
Take your stand, because I am through.
I fall to the ocean floor, just to get relief.
When my heart was left sore, I lost all belief.
Im wasting away, Nothing could touch me then.
Im wasting away, depression is my major "sin".
I've wasted away, away from mortal men.
Categories:
wasting away, death, depression, lost love,
Form: Rhyme
wasting away
fading with the day
no matter what i say
i cant convince myself im ok
ive cut off from the habit
but how much longer will i make it
without cutting
without crying
without bleeding
my purpose is leaving
life has no meaning
i wake up screaming
nothing left to believe in
i disappear
the end is near
overcomed by fear
lies is all i hear
caught in my mind
depressing thoughts is all i find
everything inside my head is spinning
the want to hang on is thinning
i know im not winning
hes all im wanting
all im needing
yet hes always leaving
i feel like i have no one
everything seems gone
tormented and all alone
im dying in my darkness
the pain the shadows caress
wasting away
fading with the day
no matter what i say
i cant convince myselk im ok
Categories:
wasting away, art, friendship, music, song-
Form: Lyric