Never knowing nepotism- no legacy, no love
sitting awkward on an unpushed swing
Creating a fantasy father in my mind
Better than he who left me far behind
Every day was telling, the hurt grew never less
Teeming with torture, a fire inside my chest
Abandonment is obscenely abusive
Now attachment is extremely elusive
Wounds inflicted endlessly, with no way to heal
Every endeavor pursued was to impress you
the father I never knew
Grades were A's, made amazing plays...
for that empty seat in the stands
Revenge was prevailing, despite your absence
Then we met, I never knew nervousness 'til this
The reunion was flawed...Your intentions I saw
You're placating as I clenched my fists
No fatherly pride, inside I died
You broke me all over again...
Every Achievement undone...As I retreated self-loathing
Categories:
unpushed, angst, fatherfather, father, me,
Form: Free verse