I wonder if I did not stay,
What paths my life would gently sway.
Would destiny unfold anew,
Or fade like whispers that I once knew?
In the realm of infinite chance,
Would joy still dance its blissful dance?
Or would regret with mournful sigh,
Embrace my heart beneath the sky?
The road untraveled tempts my mind,
With secrets hidden, left behind.
Yet, in this place where I remain,
A tapestry of memories reign.
For in the choice to stay or roam,
We shape the life we call our own.
So, as I ponder what could be,
I find contentment, here, with me.
Categories:
unchosen, blessing,
Form: Free verse
This fate that I have decided to never cross.
My last chance at adventure had been lost.
As I am left with broken chemistry.
The last chance at friendship had decayed with the breeze.
The adventures I never allowed myself…
An empty past is as permanent as fear itself.
Categories:
unchosen, angst, anxiety,
Form: Rhyme
Here I am again,
To this cursed form of libido,
An eternity I hope not it will be,
Forever cursing the heavy weight of sympathy
To myself I feel pity,
I have loved,
And I have lost,
But this is too much already
I have lost myself into this pit before,
Oh how cruel that I'm falling to it once again,
Another goodbye from a girl I love,
My fears have again resurfaced
I see her smile and I remember her stories,
The guy that had that smirk,
The guy who you once loved,
Is never the same as me
Now they're together happily,
Both hearts are filled with bliss,
I cannot bear watch them together,
For my heart itself is grieving and bleeding
Once again I have lost,
Once again I am the stranger,
Once again I have seen love,
And once again I have been the second choice.
Categories:
unchosen, dark, emo, feelings, grief,
Form: Free verse
They said I fell too hard for you.
I said otherwise.
They said I was lost in the "heat of the moment".
But I know my feelings.
I knew I loved you.
I loved you like I loved no other...
But...
Did you love me.?
We started our relationship on a fairy's wing.
We were newly weds in need of bad romance.
But I wasn't ready...
not yet.
You called me every night.
But after a month or so...
I hardly heard you voice at all.
You were aching to say "I love you."
But after a month or so...
I was aching to hear you say it.
You were ready and willing to start our relationship.
But after a month or so...
You showed yourself more than capable of ending it.
When you left me
You forgot to lift the spell that had me bound to you.
I had no choice but to love you...
even though you left me.
And as of right now...
I still love you...
although it's been a year and three months
since I last saw you.
But until you lift that trance
I will never be
Over you.
Categories:
unchosen, devotion, lost love, love,
Form: Free verse