I still remember the day you stole my innocence away.
The world shifted—
colors drained from golden light to endless shadow.
It started as a simple conversation,
slowly pulling me down to your basement.
I was only 13 years old
when you left me to walk home on shaking legs.
At first, I thought I deserved it—
because fear stole my words before I could speak.
You stole my voice, my innocence, my dignity, leaving me with nothing but fragments of myself.
Just when I thought it couldn’t get any worse,
it did.
Another man used his hands,
leaving me with bruises and broken ribs.
He said it was because "he could."
But my story didn’t end there—
I would never allow it.
I was left with scars, but never silence.
I am a survivor, not a coward.
Categories:
trigger warning, anger, anxiety, deep, feelings,
Form: Free verse
As the room closes in,
my heart begins to pound,
body begins to shiver.
With every cut,
a story told,
in crimson lines
emotions unfold.
But in the darkness,
there's a light,
a glimmer of hope,
shining bright.
For within the scars,
resilience lies.
To those who are hurting,
I hear you,
I see you.
Categories:
trigger warning, anxiety, depression, mental health,
Form: Free verse
Depression feels like it's eating me inside,
Feels like the world is ending and all I want to do is cry,
Bills piling up so high,
And my worth of living makes me want to die,
It's killing me inside,
I can confide,
But what will it change,
Everything feels out of range,
Screaming for a life preserver as I'm drowning,
But the water is forcing me under,
I'm suffocating,
I'm losing,
It's killing me inside,
Try so hard but fail each time,
I'm losing an uphill battle,
I lost my battle cry,
Maybe it's just easier if I gave up,
And let surviving die.
Categories:
trigger warning, anxiety, change, death, depression,
Form: Rhyme
Trigger warning;
Cock back aim;
Just make sure you’re pointing
the barrel the right way;
Trigger warning;
Cock back aim;
Someone trying to tell you what to do?
You already know what you need to do;
Trigger warning;
Cock back aim;
Take the mirror and shatter it;
Say what you need to say;
Trigger warning;
Cock back aim;
Don’t be a reflection of the ‘quiet’
they are screaming for you to be;
Trigger warning;
Cock back aim;
Silence should be
the only trigger warning we need.
Categories:
trigger warning, emotions, encouraging, feelings, inspiration,
Form: Free verse
Looking through old posts and being reminded of the despair I was feeling a few years ago...
Posts about suicide
Posts about self harm
Posts about never feeling worthy
Posts about not wanting to be alive.
It hurts to be reminded of the pain I was feeling.
In the depths of my depression and self-loathing;
Thoughts of escaping the abyss were my only companion.
The ache remembering all of my negative thoughts and swirling darkness inside my mind.
If I could go back I would tell you to hold on;
Don’t think about the bridge, or put down that knife.
It will not take the pain away.
I would tell you that you make it;
Scathed and scarred, but very much alive.
I would tell you that you find love;
A love that will aid the healing.
But most of all I would tell you;
You are worthy. You are loved. You are fearless. And one day you will know that this enough.
Categories:
trigger warning, mental illness,
Form: I do not know?