Past Pain

Looking through old posts and being reminded of the despair I was feeling a few years ago... Posts about suicide Posts about self harm Posts about never feeling worthy Posts about not wanting to be alive. It hurts to be reminded of the pain I was feeling. In the depths of my depression and self-loathing; Thoughts of escaping the abyss were my only companion. The ache remembering all of my negative thoughts and swirling darkness inside my mind. If I could go back I would tell you to hold on; Don’t think about the bridge, or put down that knife. It will not take the pain away. I would tell you that you make it; Scathed and scarred, but very much alive. I would tell you that you find love; A love that will aid the healing. But most of all I would tell you; You are worthy. You are loved. You are fearless. And one day you will know that this enough.