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Happy?
I had so much going on in my life
and that hasn't changed after you left
scars on my heart and in my head
and although i kind of wish I saw that before the email
i still have a chance to apologize
not to you, but to last year
for all the BS I tried to get myself into
because all the flags were painted lime, so that means you were fine, right
not quite
so i bleached my eyes white
you brainwashed me, and i was dirty
so i rewashed it
rewatched your videos for the last time
deleted them
defeated the demon in me that still wanted to be inside you
hoping that i'll forget your name,
because by the time i face my future
i'll know there are so many people with your name
and i played with them all the same way you wished you could
but youre the only one with that name
it's fine, i dont care
you wouldn't know if i'd remember because if I were you right now, i'd feel like that monarch butterfly i saw on the sidewalk
baking in the sunlight
unable to fly
doomed to disappear
i wish i could take a picture so i could show you
oh well,
maybe it was meant to be forgotten.
oh well, maybe it wasn't meant to be
just like you werent meant to be loved like she loved me.
and i kissed her
and it reminded me how it could have been you
it's a damn good thing i'll never be good enough for you
right?
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Ramael Vosem
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