remembering the time when i was LOST
Forever wondering when I won’t be left behind and upset
Pondering if you’ll ever save me from burying me alive
Wandering in the woods of my spiralling mindset of regret
Squandering my time time after time and I will surely survive
Strange how change makes us feel deranged
Remembering the time when I was lost and wasting away at last
Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged
The past is in the past and my mind is racing extremely fast
I don’t deserve to be deserted, though you are the one I adore
I don’t deserve to be mistreated and neglected by you
I won’t accept your heartless maltreatment anymore
Although you are feeling somewhat empty and blue
Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred and I’m so sore
Constantly getting raped by woeful, harsh rue…
Learning to cope with these emotions to the core…I let go and soar
What did I do to deserve this cruel love flu?
For your sake alone,
I will break on my own
Remember the time I was lost?
You couldn’t find me at any cost
Strange how change makes us feel deranged
Remembering the time when I was bewildered and oh so uptight
Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged
Recalling a better time spent with you all day and night with my might
I don’t deserve to be deserted
I don’t deserve to be lost and in anguish
I won’t accept your maltreatment anymore
I don’t deserve to be jaded and languish
Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred
I don’t deserve to be lost, forgotten and blind
Learning to cope with these emotions to the core
I don’t deserve the unjoyous frame of mind
But, you’ll find me eventually…
You’ll see that I will be set free
I’m sorry I was lost irrationally
Maybe, someday, I’ll be happy
Strange how change makes us feel deranged
Remembering the time when I was lost and wasting away at last
Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged
The past is in the past and my mind is racing extremely fast
I don’t deserve to be deserted, though you are the one I adore
I don’t deserve to be mistreated and neglected by you
I won’t accept your heartless maltreatment anymore
Although you are feeling somewhat empty and blue
Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred and I’m so sore
Constantly getting raped by woeful, harsh rue…
Learning to cope with these emotions to the core…I let go and soar
What did I do to deserve this cruel love flu?
I don’t deserve the unjoyous frame of mind…
If you’d be so kind, let’s unwind and leave the past behind
Under a wicked, evil spell once more
Intoxicated by my infatuation to the core
My darling love, hope you’re so well,
Living in this egotistical world of hell
Strange how change makes us feel deranged
Remembering the time when I was lost and wasting away at last
Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged
The past is in the past and my mind is racing extremely fast
I don’t deserve to be deserted, though you are the one I adore
I don’t deserve to be mistreated and neglected by you
I won’t accept your heartless maltreatment anymore
Although you are feeling somewhat empty and blue
Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred and I’m so sore
Constantly getting raped by woeful, harsh rue…
Learning to cope with these emotions to the core…I let go and soar
What did I do to deserve this cruel love flu?
It’s true, I love you in my heavy-grieved heart
It’s true, I am tearing apart from the very start
Only His time tells and all
When your pedestal of pleasure
Will crumble down and fall
Beyond a billion measures I’m sure
Strange how change makes us feel deranged
Remembering the time when I was lost and wasting away at last
Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged
The past is in the past and my mind is racing extremely fast
I don’t deserve to be deserted, though you are the one I adore
I don’t deserve to be mistreated and neglected by you
I won’t accept your heartless maltreatment anymore
Although you are feeling somewhat empty and blue
Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred and I’m so sore
Constantly getting raped by woeful, harsh rue…
Learning to cope with these emotions to the core…I let go and soar
What did I do to deserve this cruel love flu?
Sometimes, you did lift up the weight of the world from my shoulders
But, instead of making it easy, you made me hike all these boulders…
Gave my demons an undesirable reason to flee
Gave my heavenly angels a sunlit hope to be free
It gets lonesome in my awful dwelling place
But, His haven is of heavenly, gleeful grace
Only His time will tell
If I’ll become enlightened
Maybe it will ring a bell
When I become strengthened
Remembering the time when I was lost in the thought of you without a clue
Forever found in His loving spirit and embraced me with happiness anew
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J.W. Earnings
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