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My Anxiety and Other Unmentionable Things
my anxiety is like a straightjacket
i'm desperately moving against the restraints
but the longer and harder i resist
the weaker i become
and my anxiety is like a roadmap
taking me to the darkest parts of myself
and i can see that these thoughts and fears of mine are irrational
but my anxiety makes them rational
and my anxiety is an addictive drug
on my worse days i can feel it pumping through my veins
and spilling out of every single cell in my body
my heartbeat is the bass drum making my ears bleed
and my fingertips are twitching
and itching for release
my anxiety is a cage
and i can see everyone around me
living and laughing and loving
my eyes are stuck on him and her
and i know it means nothing
but on my worse days it means everything
my anxiety is a toxic relationship
because when it's around i cannot truly live
and when it's gone a piece of me goes with it
on those worse days my hands are clenched and wringing
desperately attempting to push these feelings out of me
and my arms are shaking with the added pressure of
don't let them see
don't let them know
my anxiety is one of those unmentionable things
one of those infinite things that makes me
and breaks me
-interminable
Copyright ©
Felicity Hernandez
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