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reinvention
he used to think of himself as a partner father and professional guy
yet inside of himself he was lonely despondent isolated from himself
a doer controller and protagonist without personal truth or emotion
as a child he was taught that feelings would only diminish success
whereas rational reflection would gain power and knowledge
became a lover without honest attachment a passionate denier of togetherness
fell apart got depressed and sought the solution in alcohol and stupor
until carnage wreckage dissolution and grief became a questionable friend
even with his new soulmate twin flame companion and confidant
life became burdensome as he fulfilled the providence of desperate void
something had to give for shackles contempt agony and self-pity to dissolve
for the past be forgiven the present to engage with and a future to happen
egocide to master his overpowering shadows became the only feasible option
with nowhere to go but inside he prayed for serenity and harmonious peace
he would not have found a favourable outcome without friends and support
accepting help therefore turned out to be liberating humbling and joyous
today he lives a simple life in quietude not easy but with the promise of recovery
as he trudges the road of happy destiny in meditation one step at a time
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Kai Michael Neumann
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