reinvention

he used to think of himself as a partner father and professional guy yet inside of himself he was lonely despondent isolated from himself a doer controller and protagonist without personal truth or emotion as a child he was taught that feelings would only diminish success whereas rational reflection would gain power and knowledge became a lover without honest attachment a passionate denier of togetherness fell apart got depressed and sought the solution in alcohol and stupor until carnage wreckage dissolution and grief became a questionable friend even with his new soulmate twin flame companion and confidant life became burdensome as he fulfilled the providence of desperate void something had to give for shackles contempt agony and self-pity to dissolve for the past be forgiven the present to engage with and a future to happen egocide to master his overpowering shadows became the only feasible option with nowhere to go but inside he prayed for serenity and harmonious peace he would not have found a favourable outcome without friends and support accepting help therefore turned out to be liberating humbling and joyous today he lives a simple life in quietude not easy but with the promise of recovery as he trudges the road of happy destiny in meditation one step at a time