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Prioritize
it’s hard to prioritize peace
But to rid myself of this unwanted pain
Of this tiresome situation,
I have to prioritize me
it took way to long to realize I Was stuck
In a cycle of love,lies,regret then disgust
And acknowledgement was my first step
To realizing there was nothing left.
But apologies and forgiveness
Tho my forgiveness run out
For my eyes have now dried
For I am no longer able to shout
I am unable to shed tears so I will no longer try
I rid my self of all my insecurities, all my reasons to cry,
For my cup has run empty
And I simply can not bare,yesterdays pain
Because I simply do not care.
And it took many situations for my care to run out
Please Don’t fool yourself into thinking this was sudden
It took the tears from what I actually needed
And You let my tears fall for nothing
And for that you deserve less,
Less than you’ve given me
however, I wish you a lover who is willing, I wish you peace
I wish you the ability to correctly portray your feelings
I wish you the contentment that I feel now
I wish that you reach where I am without figuring out how
It feels to be in my shoes
For I don’t think you could exist as me
And for that I look at you, I cry for you with nothing but pity
Which once was anger but I’ve learned to overcome
and through this rugged convalescence
I prioritize me, I am Done
with tears, with lies with withholding the truth
for I now prioritize my peace, my pleasure, my heart… I will no longer prioritize you
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Deasia Luster
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