Prioritize

it’s hard to prioritize peace But to rid myself of this unwanted pain Of this tiresome situation, I have to prioritize me it took way to long to realize I Was stuck In a cycle of love,lies,regret then disgust And acknowledgement was my first step To realizing there was nothing left. But apologies and forgiveness Tho my forgiveness run out For my eyes have now dried For I am no longer able to shout I am unable to shed tears so I will no longer try I rid my self of all my insecurities, all my reasons to cry, For my cup has run empty And I simply can not bare,yesterdays pain Because I simply do not care. And it took many situations for my care to run out Please Don’t fool yourself into thinking this was sudden It took the tears from what I actually needed And You let my tears fall for nothing And for that you deserve less, Less than you’ve given me however, I wish you a lover who is willing, I wish you peace I wish you the ability to correctly portray your feelings I wish you the contentment that I feel now I wish that you reach where I am without figuring out how It feels to be in my shoes For I don’t think you could exist as me And for that I look at you, I cry for you with nothing but pity Which once was anger but I’ve learned to overcome and through this rugged convalescence I prioritize me, I am Done with tears, with lies with withholding the truth for I now prioritize my peace, my pleasure, my heart… I will no longer prioritize you