Ultimate Sacrifice
I run from memories, stained in enough felony
After a failed choreography to budge up new colony
To annul life, yet live the same life pieces harmony
Quick succession of bolding and evanesce jeopardy
In confusion.
Constantly nudged, freely flowing tears of sorrow
Daily singing a dirge, hoping to let go and be free morrow
I wanted to be a murderer but ended with a savior’s furrow
It brought no good, for I doubled as accomplice, left to harrow
In self-mutilation
The ritual, so pricy, so costly, so sloshy
Double-forward, triple backsteps in a life model meshy
Seesawed between starvation on reality and biting on dangerous fleshy
Until I realized danger to obsoletion, victim to splashy
To extinction
Then I took on the sacrifice, with I the suffice lamb
Resounding echo of dead-self and alive in self-clump
The scarlet liquid flowed, undoing my members ramp
Anguishing to death, wishing for a comforting samp
The sweetened bitterness
I felt the life ooze much like a god obligate
Turned into macabre character, freer of the obstinate
Stealing, killing, destroying, but for good that I hop`d reiterate
Then I stared in awful horror, to see the norm reinstate
Still lied, lifeless former self
How tell the dead from reborn?
As the newborns are christened and adorn`d
So did I christen and pamper the propon`d
In prep to complete the ritual, seal the forlong`d
With ultimate thrust
Without empathy, in untraced rigor, fresh bogger
Lenience had been my weakness, sympathy my divorced swagger
To the core of former self did I nail the perpetual dagger
Blade with the seven seals, seven oracles, one code stagger
Code of self-trust
The stage was laid for my final funeral rite
Deeply admired the deceased, explicitly feigning right
But for the newborn to thrive, the former had to brit
Lowered six-feet deep, to never teleport, never victim rit
Never! Never!
I toasted and drank, to the lifetime achievement
Sans knowledge of life, yet determined to life merriment
To the cupful of my scarlet blood, my sacrament
I gulped to resuscitate, regurgitating lies predicament
Setting the seals ablaze!
Search for the ex no more, for the seals glitter blinds
Behold the newborn, his radiance and ambience binds
The link is broken, so broken, perpetually in grinds
Freedom at last, post-harrowing ritual, unlinked from hinds
Affirmation of the code!
I stood on dais of death,
Took the oath allegiance to death,
Delighted in life and death!
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Real Heman
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