What a miserable person he must be...
obsessively dreaming up ways..
to make life miserable...
for you and me.
Categories:
obsessively, america,
Form: Free verse
v v g's artful heliotropic
for a while made him obsessively tick
Categories:
obsessively, art,
Form: Didactic
Memories tell lies,
“Behind enemy lines” is getting caught in my mind.
But “two twos” overslept,
Behind glossed over eyes the secrets are kept.
So memories tell lies,
That you already know.
My youth kept inside hides,
That’s something I just couldn’t let go.
That self supremacy just wouldn’t die,
Why,
Oh why shouldn’t I just forget my woes?
Over obsessively weighing cons against pros,
The case only gets closed whenever the answers are known.
Heart beats keep pace,
Decaying on the longer blood flows.
Sour and tart,
Life’s an acquired taste,
Some don’t mind waiting as the cancer just grows.
But hearts need to race,
Down roads with no clue wherever it goes.
I’m chasing being alive,
I just know that I’m close.
I’m chasing down my life,
To see the “Ro” I miss most.
Memories tell lies,
Sincerely yours,
One of the guys.
Categories:
obsessively, absence, cancer, confusion, depression,
Form: Free verse
("Outside Looking In Merit Badge", 2011, original oil)
Building a Dream
My whole life I have been observing myself
Steadily, obsessively telling a story,
Sure, throughout the day, from to time, I lose myself
In work and play and focus on others
But inevitably the focus returns to me
And all those other moments get added to my story.
This is an obsession that never rests
As the watchfulness that never sleeps
Continues to gaze wherever, in, out, around
While my program runs on top
Piecing it all together
Into a whole greater than the parts.
Now that I am old and the story is long and rich
I can see this life’s work, as natural as it is,
Has perhaps been misguided
Flawed by a fundamental compulsive program
Of being me
A dreamer never really free of the dream.
(7/29/24)
Categories:
obsessively, dream, perspective, self,
Form: Narrative
They say silence is violence,
But it felt the easiest way to avoid yours.
I never knew how deafening the hush was to your ears.
But don’t think that when I’m quiet
That I am not speaking,
In my head I am on a tirade
That won’t stop for days.
See I learned what you did not,
To think before I speak.
It’s just I obsessively overprocess
And lose my opportunity to tell you,
Eloquently,
What’s really going on.
Categories:
obsessively, introspection, relationship, silence,
Form: Free verse
People who see you down and laugh,
suffering pain they feel they’ve had
smile at the misery you now have,
display traits of a psychopath
People who look down on you
will not hide it’s what they do
compare without a reason too
know it all while you’ve no clue
People who will make excuses
come and go as one chooses
live a lie because they’re useless
learn nothing forever clueless
People who are self absorbed
believe they live to be adored
though in truth they are ignored
time with them will leave you bored
People who were born attractive
suffer those they interact with
insults fly from bitter lips
lips that then say get a grip
People who see you their rival
compete obsessively as if it’s vital
with a darkness in their eyeball
hurting you they feel delightful
There are few who care for you
those respecting things you do
don’t just take but give back too
so rare so golden and so few
People who obsess are less
want to prove they are the best
all you get from them is stress
keep them around become depressed
Categories:
obsessively, life, people,
Form: Rhyme
Hands held deep within my mind
Wearing the pockets out this time
Pondering the ignorance held inside
In the everything of nothing I find
Wasted Time...Wasted Time...
Obsessively scratching that itch not there
Drawing blood from skin that's already red
Slight look of indifference paints I don't care
The first impression of the already dead
Wasted Life...Wasted Life...
Eyes cast down in a myopic trance
Feet push forward in a frantic pace
Already blew that one last chance
Please don't look upon my face
Wasted Time...Wasted Life...
Categories:
obsessively, conflict, deep, depression,
Form: Rhyme
(To suppose that something is true without having evidence to confirm it)
She fought courageously
Her battle was arduous; potentially leading to her demise
The only impediment to her success
Was flawed thoughts, she surmised
She obsessively tried to predict the future
She desperately tried to avoid all of life's pain
The inability to quiet her mind
Left her filled with doubt and self shame
They say that all of our experiences
Are contingent on the world we choose to view
If we don't have the experience - the perspective
All of our problems accrue
You see the strength of our battle
Is determined by the strength of one's mind
When we clarify and evaluate
It's like changing water into wine
So, let’s fight the battle courageously
Discern the emotions inside
The only impediment to our success
Is flawed thoughts, don't surmise
Categories:
obsessively, anxiety, appreciation, beautiful, beauty,
Form: Rhyme
I tried to reach out, blink in silence and say my words, but there is a lost syllable and a forgiven diction. I buried my art, my passion.
I tried to tear my skin apart, carve in silence and swim in the blood, but there is a broken knife and a tired hand. I buried my sorrow, my passion.
i tried to hold your hand, glimpse in your heart and kiss it close, but there is a fragile door and the locks made of dead petals. i buried my love, my passion.
"I went back to the grave, holding your favourite lilies. I dig slowly beside you and reach the metal clank. I loved you passionately and obsessively.
The box handle creaks and opens, a canvas with dried blood stains, a half fractured knife and the unsent letters.
a lady walks up to me, handcuffs me back and requests that i slowly move away from the evidence and let go".
I buried your body, my passion.
Categories:
obsessively, abuse, addiction, anger, angst,
Form: Narrative
There’s a need for you to move on.
Rattling my cupboards random.
Moving objects, obsessively distracting.
To cast out tempting visions
So I can focus, on these days
Time tells me though,
I’m due for your apparition
That hovers above my brow
Haunting my steady darkness
Keeping me from real sleep
Most are residual smiles
Wind in your ground-leaf hair
Both laughing till tears
Music discreetly playing to open road
I often reach to caress
Passing right through to loneliness
Fear-realizing the granted-taken
You tech. whisper “missing you”
But a tease of evidence
If I sit, numb
You fade till night
A realization
Your oblivious, you haunt.
Categories:
obsessively, nature,
Form: Free verse
TEEN GENE (to my dear daughters)
Hard it has been
To live as a Teen
Dubbed Drama Queen
Blame it on Gene!
So many issues! One sure prevails,
That is: how long should I wear my nails!?
How to file- round or square, polish- red, black or green?
It's of vital importance, blame it on Gene.
My hair, of you I am obsessively fond
So painful to live as a natural blonde
Boys like it, girls hate me, get nasty and mean
As they are possessed by the wicked Teen Gene!
The most consuming obsession is to fit in,
They say it’s a stage of ego-maniac Gene
Tweeter, Facebook, Instagram-powerful means
It’s all about selfies of narcissistic Teens!
My mother, oh brother, cannot understand
Keeps referring to lifestyle of her native land
With no cars, no computers, not even bananas
Mom, don't pile your childhood misery on us!
Well, lack of bananas did not not intervene
With mom’s same notorious wicked Teen Gene!
Categories:
obsessively, angel, humorous,
Form: Rhyme
I’m losing it; you know I am
When I ask myself questions, then answer them out loud
And consider this a “conversation”
When the lizard that made his way into my home
Becomes my pet
When I repeatedly count the cards in my deck
Because I can’t win at solitaire
When my first thought as a hurricane nears
Is fear of virus transmissions in evacuation shelters
When each day is much like the last
And I wake in bed, not knowing if it’s day or night
When I haven’t seen family for eight months
My skin starts to itch; my hands shake and twitch
When I’m told I’ll have to quarantine
If I want to visit sick family members
When I hear fear in my sister’s voice
As she tells me New Jersey's second wave has begun
When I manicure my lawn obsessively
With scissors instead of a mower
When my list of prayerful intentions
Takes an hour to review
When the noise crickets make
Starts sounding like a symphony and I look forward to their nightly
performance
I’m losing it; you know I am
Written July 29, 2020
For Chantelle’s “Isolation Philosophy” contest
Categories:
obsessively, fear,
Form: Free verse
“After obsessively Googling symptoms for four hours,
I discovered 'obsessively Googling symptoms' is a
symptom of hypochondria.” Stephen Colbert
LABORED BREATHING
cough is heard - a hack
that causes one to wipe brow
with thermometer
in creases of worry lines
hoping for sweat not fever
3/4/2020
Categories:
obsessively, sick,
Form: Light Verse
The exam is tomorrow ~ he thinks about it quite obsessively
Date: 07/20/2019
Categories:
obsessively, 12th grade, anxiety, student,
Form: Monoku
Back when you had authority
fact is you behaved horribly
I was your only priority
actions stressed unsightly
lashing out as you'd fight me
infatuated obsessively
forcing oppressively
harp so all think less of me
smackdown unimpressively
as you fail when addressing me
acting predictably
thinking sickly
everyday blatantly
bait and detectably
you were really detesting me
couldn't get the best of me
but that's just how you be,
I'm glad that isn't me.
I react there's your smile to see
your nasty vile mind set free
just out to cause misery,
I'm glad that isn't me.
impacting repeatedly
no slack til defeating me
an all out beating spree,
I'm glad that isn't me.
I saw your true personality
all out insanity
the narcissistic reality,
ecstatic that isn't me.
Yes you come across as an evil person,
that personality of yours couldn't worsen,
but I'll stop putting you down with curse,
it's evident that your brain has burst.
Though you come across horribly,
I'll conclude my thoughts logically,
It's clear you behave like a moron
because you're brain cells are all gone.
Categories:
obsessively, humorous, hurt, me, people,
Form: Rhyme
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