Maladaptive Daydreaming
The flashing lights grow closer,
but the cries of my 6-year-old sister
have quieted.
To my left, I see the car driver, my brother,
lying motionless in the road.
Rain hits my legs.
No.
Blood drips down my body.
I can no longer feel my own pulse.
Relief washes over me;
I won’t have to face the agony of
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Categories:
maladaptive, mental health,
Form: Free verse
Maladaptive Daydreams
I unplug myself from reality;
Dissociate myself from everything.
Put my body on aeroplane mode
To go back to the daydreams and delusions
Just so I could feel something.
But when I return I always find everything shattered
And so I try to pick everything up
And get back on track
Only to find I've lost everything in me.
The bits and
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Categories:
maladaptive, conflict, depression, emotions, mental
Form: Free verse
Maladaptive
Everyone was begging me to do something about my anxiety.
So I got into meditation.
So I mediate every day.
It was all on them.
Then it was all mine.
Forever, all mine.
As sad as it is,
It gets less daunting over time.
And more like-
This is heavenly.
And more like-
I will live forever if I keep this up.
For hours and hours,
Then
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Categories:
maladaptive, angst, anxiety,
Form: Free verse
Maladaptive Daydreaming
A hand full of bliss,
with life’s contentment, I
woke up desolate.
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Categories:
maladaptive, anger, deep, depression, emotions,
Form: Haiku
Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder
And maybe tonight in feasting
I'll inhale the flavors of my meal
and exhale colors in the wind
I have not been chosen
beyond our understanding, it just is
It’s the quiet that scares me
so I'm a puppeteer of the shadows
Dancing near the light source
to feed my lonely
I breathe this naturally
Another dimension
Another time
More laughter
I'm pacing and spinning
Yelling and singing
I'm in
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Categories:
maladaptive, health, imagination, prayer,
Form: Free verse