Maladaptive Daydreams

I unplug myself from reality; Dissociate myself from everything. Put my body on aeroplane mode To go back to the daydreams and delusions Just so I could feel something. But when I return I always find everything shattered And so I try to pick everything up And get back on track Only to find I've lost everything in me. The bits and pieces I've tried to connect Were long gone before I knew. Hallucinations, dreams and reality Look all the same to me. No longer able to tell them apart I lose, once again, every sense of reality Just to be an empty vessel numbed with nothingness.