Long Self disgust Poems

The Undertow


The two could feel the undertow
Pull at them both - then let them go
He wondered if she could know
Or sense it too and let it flow

The undertow in the fast-running tide
Ebbed and flowed at...

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October: I'm eighteen, shortcutting home
through an autumn-burnished churchyard -
copper-lustred leaves, moss-skinned stone -
a jaunty swing of skater skirt and arm,
college folder square-sturdy in my hand.
In the moment. In the last pale pulse of sun.

Hey, can...

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Here in Bolehland, one video clip is making its viral round...
A staged episode of how talking to strangers can be far from sound...

The power of black magic via touch or suggestion...
Must be serious enough to...

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The world is weeping, can you hear it? 

For the first child whose innocence we stole, for the first tree we cut, for the first soul we omitted..the earth wept......faint.....distant...unimportant

As a writer I know many...

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The Failure
When I was bored with sea life
and walked ashore in Santiago
I could find no work except in house of ill repute
throwing out the rebellious and for some reason
became a father confessor to the women,...

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How harsh it hurts, the sickle gash of your betrayal 
carved like Zorro's brand into the hunger of my ashen face; 
mutely it reflects its torture in every mirror, 
mimes its rage and self-disgust, 
this...

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I wasn't ready for it when it hit. 
Pathetic, self-absorbed, wallowing in grief, 
plaiting the threads of self-disgust and wit, 
I toyed with tragic sonnets for relief. 

The night was hot. The cleft of Guadalin...

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I am crying tears of loneliness, frustration and contempt
for a life that I know has not been too well spent;
for time here on earth that was wasted and for naught;
for battles that I waged in...

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September noon was hot
I sat alone in a crowd

My counterfeit leather boots were cheap vinyl,
Like traces of gas in a puddle,
They shone an iridescent rainbow

I wanted faded “501’S” but wore
“Monkey Wards” counterfeit denim

My skin no...

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Three neighbors litter on our street
buzzing along as I stroll past their gates;
and they jiggle like vicious wasps
while a silent howl drills on my head.
Yeah…all that drama, women of farce,
greeting  me coyly with pretentious...

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I do not recognise my own face.
I have stared at this mirror too long.
Features blurred beyond understanding:
My eyes, nose and mouth seem to be wrong.

Eyes
filled with uncertainty;
glazed with world-weary despair;
no longer conscious of suffering;
unwilling and...

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Marriage
is being stuck in the elevator with that hot flirty associate
Clive Christian lux on him invigorating your senses
inviting muscles clearly designed on the twill tight shirt
his butt narrating all there is to know bout "his...

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Broken bleeding heart
Tattered torn soul
Mind in shreds blowing in the wind
Like so many scraps of muddied linen
Blank eyes hiding an eternity of sorrow
Clenched fists with bitten nails
Restraining a life-long anguish
Milky flesh bearing the scars of...

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Maybe...
it was not meant to be
The death of a heart...
Oh, was I really just too blind to see?

Maybe...
My heart is doomed
Forever failing...
Whenever love has bloomed

Maybe…
it wasn't enough just to feel
Should have done more...
Shouldn't have let...

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The dread

He had slept too long hours lost
in a dream of deep dissatisfaction down a well of evil failure.
The depth had a silt of regrets and self- disgust.
Getting back up was slow progress
like an eagle...

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The Long Sleep
I had been sleeping too long hours lost
in a dream of deep dissatisfaction down a well
lined with failures
Its depth had silt of regrets and self- disgust
getting back up was a slow progress an...

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The white color of virginity,
reflecting the devilish red of hell!
Dusk till dawn,
the predators attack relentlessly.
Unknown,
disrespectful circumstances lurk in the corridors of surprise.
The brink of No return approaches.
Self respect is lost,
within the devil of self disgust...

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I know I've let my body go and grow so spare me of your incantations,
The slither betwixt your pretty lips saying thoughts of thy own fascination.

Sinew may seep from neath thy skin,
And beauty is abundant...

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Have you ever made a a mistake
So small
So simple
You barely even knew it existed at all
Until suddenly there it is
Blinding in it's radiance
For all the world to see
Insidious and ever reaching
Tainting all you know
With a...

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