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Wednesday, January 12, 2022
A Celebrity Epitaph Poetry Contest
Sponsored by: Michelle Faulkner
Categories:
hutchins, appreciation,
Form: Epitaph
What Interests Me
I know there are men more tender than you
With eyes more protective than yours,
And more other things,
And . . . . . . .
But I’m not interested in the number of hydrogen bonds in molecules of water.
All I know is that without water, I’ll die of thirst
And it’s the same
Without you.
Translated by William Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, love,
Form: I do not know?
I'm ready to grieve now... so let there be tears
It’s time to move on to face all my fears
It’s time to let go now... so let there be pain
It’s time to start crying when I hear your name
My days have been frozen since you have been gone
My nights I just live in the words of our song
I cling to the past and all that we knew
Too scared to let go, the memory of you
I know now that time will never erase
Our memories, a love I can never replace
I know to move on doesn’t mean you forget
I know to let go doesn’t mean you regret
I must close the door now and find a new way
To reach for tomorrow and not yesterday
It’s time to remember and smile when I do
All the fun, the laughter and love shared with you
It’s time for goodbye, to let the tears flow
It’s time to move now...it’s time to let go..
Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, angst, lonely, loss, sad,
Form: Ballad
For me the sun has closed her eyes
Never to rise again
Darkness is all that surrounds me now
Darkness and echoes of pain
I'm on a journey to nowhere
The road is narrow and long
Walking alone, I stumble and fall
With echoes of you and our song
I try to look to the future, but
I may just as well be blind
The absence of you is all that I see
Echoes of you so defined
Confusion and pain, my constant friends
They never leave me alone
Reminders of all that you and I shared
Echoes I cannot disown
Today or tomorrow will never be mine
I live in a dark, sad place
The past, not the present, is all I can see
In the echoes of your lovely face
Emotional scars are invisible
But the damage is built to last
I wonder, will I ever be free
From echoes of you and the past...
By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, confusion, death, lost love,
Form: Ballad
Why did God create a life
That wasn’t meant to be
Why did He give eyes
If they were never meant to see
Why did He put breath in you
Then take that breath away
Why give you to me
If you were never meant to stay
Why show someone happiness
And how it feels to smile
And fill their hearts with hope
If it can only last a while
Why did God create the sun
When all it does is rain
How am I supposed to laugh
When all I feel is pain
Why let people dream
Knowing their dreams will not come true
Why should I find someone else
When all I want is you
Why say there’s a Heaven
When it doesn’t help to pray
Why is there tomorrow
When I long for yesterday
What’s the point in searching
Knowing you’re not there to find
Why give someone life
If death is following behind
So why God when He took my love
Did He not take me too
For life is not worth living
If it means I don’t have you...
By Raina Hutchins, from the UK
Categories:
hutchins, angst, death, loss, lost
Form: Ballad
My life is torn between two worlds
Of now and used to be
But all I ever wanted
Was the world of you and me
Memories of the only love
That I have ever known
It’s hard to hold them in my heart
But hard to let them go
At times I wonder who I am
Where did I go wrong
Why am I so lonely
In a life I don’t belong
I know my heart will never heal
While feeling so much pain
I’ll never find the sunshine
While I’m following the rain
Too late now for miracles
They wouldn’t change a thing
For someone else’s finger
Now wears your wedding ring
But though our song has ended
You still want us to dance
And though I’m still in love with you
My heart can't take the chance
Forever I will miss you
And forever I will cry, but
To find myself again
I know I have to say goodbye..
By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, angst, depression, lost love,
Form: Lyric
All my tomorrows will come and go
And pass just like a storm
But all this pain I feel inside my heart
Still lingers on
I would have loved you always
Held you for a million years
Instead my arms are empty
And my world is full of tears
Since you’ve gone I’m just a shadow
Of someone I used to be
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do in this world
To bring you back to me
Sometimes I wake up crying at night
Sometimes I scream out your name
What right did He have to take you from me
God, why did you take him away
I'm on a road to nowhere
And I just can't find my way
I feel so lost without you
Scared to face each waking day
Nights I lay awake just staring
Through my bloodshot eyes
Surrounded by these walls that tell
The stories of our lives
The sound of your sweet loving voice
The feel of you so close
The love I felt inside your heart
Is what I miss the most
I know someday I'll see you again
At the gates of Heaven above
And there I will find you waiting for me
My Angel, my heart, my love.
By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, angst, death, devotion, loss,
Form: Ballad
Whenever a tunnel of darkness descends
Remember... there's always a light at the end
Face all your fears, and follow your dreams
For nothing is ever as bad as it seems
Things may go wrong, but don't be afraid
Lessons are learned from mistakes that are made
Life is not painless, but never despair
Just reach deep inside...and your strength will be there..
Raina Hutchins
For Lee, my son-in-law, who was so very special to me.
Life will never be the same again...
I will miss you for always xxxx
Categories:
hutchins, angst, death, hope, loss,
Form: Epitaph
Love, I thought was meant to be
A word that makes you smile
Love, I thought was meant to be
A feeling so worthwhile
Love, I thought was meant to make you laugh
Not make you cry
Love, I thought was meant to say hello
Not say goodbye
Love is meant to leave you
Feeling happy every day
Love is meant to guide you
So you never lose your way
Love should be the dream
From which you never want to wake
Love should be the person
Whom you never will forsake
Love should be the one you lean upon
And your best friend
Love should be the reason for beginning
Not the end
Love’s a word I used to say
But now it’s in the past
Love to me is just a feeling
Never meant to last
Love to me is just a word
Reminding what I had
Love is just a word that leaves me
Lost, alone and sad
Love to me is make believe
A dream that can’t be real
Love just leaves a bleeding heart
A wound you cannot heal
One-day love is everything
You ever dreamed would be
Then suddenly it leaves you
Saying “I” instead of “We”
By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, angst, confusion, loss, lost
Form: I do not know?
You were the reason for my smile
But it's been vacant for a while
You are the reason why I’m here
I’m nothing without you
You are the reason for my song
The tears I’m crying all night long
Where did you and I go wrong
I’m nothing without you
No one here to see me cry
When you tell me one more lie
No one here to watch me die
I’m nothing without you
Now I’m lonely, sad and free
Fading in your memory
Your arms are where I need to be
I’m nothing without you
No more sunshine; only rain
No more laughter; only pain
Forever lonely I’ll remain
I’m nothing without you
I know my broken heart won't mend
I know I’ve lost my love, my friend
I know my life has reached its end
I’m nothing without you
By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, angst, loss, lost love,
Form: Lyric
I feel your breath upon my cheek
Your heartbeat next to mine
Cradled in your arms; but know
It’s just for one last time
I look into your eyes: you smile
That smile just breaks my heart
Lying here so close, but know
We’re really worlds apart
As I watch you sleep
A single tear falls from my eye
I know deep down your leaving me
I know this is goodbye
I close my eyes and silently
I pray to God above
That I will wake from sleeping
Still beside this man I love
As I pray he looks at me
And gently wipes my tears
He holds me in his arms
His whispers chase away my fears
He tells me that he loves me
How much to him I mean
But suddenly I realise
It’s really just a dream
For when my eyes are open
In the cold cruel light of day
I know my prayers weren’t answered
I know he’s gone away
What do I do now
How am I supposed to feel
How do I move on
Do I bleed, or do I heal
Do I face the truth
Or do I live on lets pretend
But sadly deep inside I know
We've reached our journeys end..
By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, angst, hope, life, loss,
Form: Ballad
Do you ever think of us
And wonder what went wrong
Are you in anothers arms
But feel you don’t belong
Was I someone special
Am I ever on your mind
Am I in your memories still
Or was I left behind
We almost had it all
I thought we’d make it all the way
But someone else’s hold on you
Just wouldn’t let you stay
I was the other woman
Always waiting by the phone
The one who always had to hide
Who spent her nights alone
My time with you was not enough
But still I can’t forget
For you will always be the love
I never will regret
Sometimes I still cry
For wondering where we went so wrong
But still I have this dream of you and I
That keeps me strong
That we share one more precious day
The way we used to know
And when I hold you in my arms
I’ll never let you go
And if this never happens
If my dream does not come true
These words I’ve never spoken
I now want to say to you
You’ll always be the one thing in my life
That was so real
I loved you then, I love you now
And I know I always will.
By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, angst, hope, life, lost
Form: Lyric
Staring out the window
I look up to the skies
I always used to say
It was the colour of your eyes
But long are the blue skies
Now replaced by dark and grey
With clouds that rain so heavy
Ever since you went away
How do I get through the days
And nights without you near
I just don’t know where I belong
Or where to go from here
I’ll always be alone
I’ll never meet somebody new
For me there’s no one in this world
To take the place of you
We had our ups and downs
We shared the laughter and the tears
But never lost the closeness
Or the love gained through the years
I can’t describe the loneliness
I feel so incomplete
For losing you it means I've lost
The biggest part of me
How am I supposed to live
This life without my love
Why should I believe
That there is good in God above
For if there was he’d dry my tears
And heal my hurt and pain
And never would have took the love
I’ll never find again
I know there’s nothing I can do
To bring you back to me
But know, that in my memory
And my heart you’ll always be..
.By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, angst, death, loss, lost
Form: Ballad
The time I’ve spent alone
Has seemed to last eternally
It seemed I’d be forever
Saying I instead of we
That something I was looking for
The image in my mind
No matter just how hard I tried
I couldn’t seem to find
I wanted someone special
Who would always love me too
Someone who would care for me
And always would be true
Someone who would hold me tight
And kiss me everyday
He'd stay with me forever
He'd never go away
He’d try to understand me
He’d never tell a lie
He’d laugh if I were happy
And hold me when I cry
I know he’d always love me
I know he’d always care
And when I go to sleep at night
I’d know he’s always there
To find this someone special
Seemed impossible to do
But I know you are special
Cause I found it all in you
And though I may not always say
Or show you how I feel
Know, how much I love you
And know, I always will
By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, devotion, happiness, hope, life,
Form: Lyric
Another night surrounds me
In this God forsaken place
Deafened by the silence
As tears roll down my face
All we were together
I never dreamed I’d go
From being someone who you loved
To who you used to know
Voices ring inside my head
Desperate to be heard
Scream out in the darkness, but
I never hear a word
Wasting yet another day
Living in the past
I know I have no future
While I hide behind this mask
Staring at the telephone
Still waiting for your call
I’d rather have you hurting me
Than not have you at all
I only pray that someday soon
You will finally see
That while my heart belongs to you
Yours still belongs to me...
By Raina Hutchins
Categories:
hutchins, angst, loss, lost love,
Form: Lyric
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