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Alexandrine
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Yes. The way your hair flies when we walk on the beach.
No. Your wrists are scarred and bleeding.
Yes. Your smile makes the world stand still.
No. Your depression will end us.
Yes. your heart is strong and and rich.
No. Your mind is polluted.
Yes. Forever and always you are mine.
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I do not know?
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It can be easy to give into depression and sadness.
It's always knocking on the door
Staring in the window
Hiding in the closet
Laughing in the mirror
Laying in the bed
but I prefer happiness and love
She is sharing her heart
She is looking into my eyes
She is smiling in my direction
She knows who I am. . . and still,
She is always there for me
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Sitting here staring blankly letting the drugs overtake me.Trying to think of real things while the man on the radio sings.
Hard to think of what to do next. it's like reading a foreign texts.
Maybe I should try to find my way back but wanting to go back is what I lack.
I hate being here you know, where the path of hurt and depression is so near.P
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Behind your eyes,
I see a sad, lonely, and depressed girl,
I see a girl who's been,
Used and abused,
By everyone around her,
I see a girl who desperately,
Needs to loved,
I look into her soul,
I see nothing but,
Darkness, depression, and fear,
I wonder who is this girl?
That girl,
Is you,
My love,
I will love you,
And do everything I can,
To make you feel better,
I'll always be there for you,
When you need me,
And I'll never hurt you,
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She heads for her front door
And she wont be back anymore
Her mind made up a while ago
Yet she really has no place to go
But she cannot stay one more day
It breaks her heart to leave this way
Leaving behind the kids and him
all her depression has set in
Now she's fighting for her life
No more mom,no more wife
As though a part of her has died
She feels nothing anymore inside
All she does every day is cry
And she has no answer why
In a note she say's goodbye
carolann crowley 3/12/2012
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i am thankful that i allowed you into my makeshift mystery
you are like the rare type of time traveler that successfully changes my history
whenever you are here, rainbows laugh and play
whenever you are near, all sadness and depression goes away
you light up the vibe of my world like the brightness of the sun at noon
you give my new steps a rhythm that makes me feel totally in tune
i pray everyday for a forever that will take us many new spaces
with you, the settings of my life's artwork consists of many different faces
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Her beauty shrouded,
Her personality hidden,
In crippling anxiety,
From which her depression is driven.
Her true self,
Only to be shown in flashes of happiness,
Small moments of laughter.
All the while,
She's so hard on herself,
Her emotions contagious,
Infecting me the more I see them.
It's ridiculous,
Emotions that are not mine,
Overwhelm me,
Her sadness drives me crazy,
And yet she suppresses them,
What is killing me,
Multiplied by a hundred,
Can only be seen,
After staring into her eyes
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I'm strong
I'm weak
I'm brave
I am a fighter
I am a warrior
I am a tiger and a crow
I am the predator and the prey
I am the watcher and the seeker
I am the seer
I am the girl that everydoy thinks they know
I am the girl that is in agony, stress, depression, and that feels lonely
I am the girl that needs her friends to be there for her when she falls
I am the girl who lives in the darkness
I am the girl that loves to read, draw and write poetry
I am the girl that is mostly happy and sad
I am the girl that cuts herself
I am the girl who loves to wear black
I am the girl who loves to listen to Rock, alternative, heavymetal
I am the girl that wants to kill herself
I am the girl that is gothic
I am th girl that is there for her friends
I am the girl that nobody knows about!
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Blue.
The color of the sky with
no clouds to dull it
Blue.
The robin's egg in the spring.
Blue.
The way the water looks
in the ocean.
Blue.
Like your gorgeous
eyes outlined with
black so they pop.
Blue.
The color of the
saddened man.
Blue.
The color of your favorite
pair of vans that you always
wore.
Blue.
The way emotion sometimes
flowed off you.
Blue.
The shade of color an
artist needs to finish the
masterpiece.
Blue.
The color under my eyes
from lack of sleep.
Blue.
The color of blood
before oxygen hits it.
Blue.
The color I love writing in.
Blue.
Even though its becoming
night, its still there.
Blue.
The color of the hat
my grandmother said
looked lovely on me.
Blue.
The color of depression.
Blue.
My favorite color.
Blue.
Your favorite color.
Blue.
The color I want to
die in, royal.
Blue.
The color I hope
you'll hate when I do.
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Stay alive
Don’t die young
Baby
Watch your ways
You think those friends
Of yours really love you
You think you stand out
Large
Taking this hard drug
Oh baby pause think
Don’t die young but
Stay alive
Stay alive
Everywhere you are found
So high
Everyone praise you
Just to your face
As many more laugh
Behind your back
Cos your curiosity
Is obiviously obivious
Your mistakes are clear
On your hard addiction
So baby calm down
Pause a while and think
Don’t die young but
Stay alive
Stay alive
You can’t control yourself
Any more
Cos you are losing it
That fire in you keeps
Dying cos your dreams
Are scattered
Now depression is your worth
While all your friends are
Far from you
In a moment you need their
Present
You see how deep is life
To you all young ladies
Out there controls your addiction
Or else you die young
But my message still remains
Don’t die young but
Stay alive
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Can I admit this to you before we say goodbye?
After all the mistakes, can I get this right?
Can I hug you one last time before I go for good?
Can I use this last chance to show you love?
I'm a flawed man, but please don't hold it against me
You say I'm full of myself, but I feel empty
I'm scared to admit that this whole thing is an act
I've been trying to fly with the wings that I lack
If a hero needs saving, how can he save you?
I'm trapped in a maze, but I want to amaze you
That line was below average and you deserve better
But this is more than me putting rhyming words together
It's like Cupid's arrow struck you, but missed me
I felt attacked anytime you kissed me
I'd never felt love and kindness before so I was scared
I pushed you away, when I didn't want you to go anywhere
You deserve all the love, but I was unable to provide it
I felt a lot for you, but depression forced me to hide it
You don't have to accept it, but I wanted to apologize
I had to write this before we say goodbye
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I've always loved girls, but I got tired of sleeping around
Oh she's got a boyfriend, we best keep it down
Sorry Ladies, but I was the type of man you didn't need around
I wasn't ready to be your king, so I shouldn't receive a crown
I came to you like a dream but didn't tell you my nightmares were there
Just hit you with lines, like you're beautiful & I like how you wear your hair
But I Broke a lot of hearts I didn't care to repair
Hurt most girls who chose to share my air
I know how to work them curves, and your body's great
But I'm too damaged to love you, you should dodge me babe
That was to complete the rhyme, please don't take the babe term with meaning
I'm battling my nightmares, I'm so sorry that I hurt your dreaming
I couldn't cope with depression and a relationship at the same time
So I slept with evey girl in sight to heal my heart and cure my mind
But I'm ready to give love a chance and raise my armour
But if this girl I'm in love with breaks my heart, I can't complain, because it will be Karma
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The term "angel" is used quite regularly.
For example: Guardian Angel is a term you use continually,
often when you are referring to me,
and I am honored that you feel that way about yours truly,
but the truth is that you in so many ways have always been an angel for me.
While you live your life embracing all the love and joy life offers everybody,
I live my life so deeply depressed, 24/7, lost in my misery.
You and I are the perfect balance, at least for me selfishly.
Every moment I have ever spent with you has relieved me,
from this chronic depression I've lived with throughout my life's history,
and for those moments we've shared, however long or however brief,
I Know How It Feels To Feel Truly Happy,
and for that My Angel you will always be,
the angel who would save me, with only just the thought of she,
from this dark existence I live constantly,
You My Angel Samara, Will Always Be My Angel, until the last breath I breath.
Yours Always My Angel, and by "always" I mean eternally.
xoxo
Samara's Medical Fund
https://www.gofundme.com/yvjnxk
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She cant express herself
they push her away
they lock her up inside her own mind
if you look throught the hole you will see
the depression shes in
Shes just like cinderella
locked up and hid away
you have no idea
look throught the hole without the key
there is nothing left for her and me
You wanna take away everything
you just left her alone
tell me it aint so
tell me you wont leave her in there forever
tell me you will let her out to be free and happy
Shes just like cinderella
locked up and hid away
you have no idea
look throught the hole without the key
there is nothing left for her and me
The new game you wanna play
it wont work
you beat her to the ground
her mind has become her home
theres no escape
She walks alone
her mind has become her home
see what your missing
she runs away but shes not allowed
now its your turn to be locked up
Shes just like cinderella
locked up and hid away
you have no idea
look throught the hole without the key
there is nothing left for her and me
there is nothing left
there is nothing left
Nothing!
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Without her-there's no
tellin' where I'd be
I'd be tossed by waves &
forever lost at sea
Self-destructive & barely
clinging to life
My spirits turned ugly
full of envy & strife
Not knowing direction or the
purpose of my course
The highway to hell- my
throttle full force
That light within me-gone-
with my heart turned black
From all the betrayal & scars
across my back
I'd still be looking for love-
slowly loosing hope
From the drugs to depression
there's no one to help me cope
No reason to care, my life
had become a blur
Then God showed Amazing Grace
with a gift such as her
Now she's tied to my soul &
runs thicker than any blood
Washing me clean, like the Lord
did with the flood
Healing all wounds of my past
enabling me to rise above
We strengthen each other & soar
like the wings of a dove
Proving that love is power, covering
a multitude of sin
So where I thought I was broken. I
was really able to bend
No doubt you saved me- Kyrie
this I know for sure
Bringing beauty back to life & feeling
God's Grace- for me- once more
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No words need to be said
So I'll pick up my pen and write them instead
I'll look at you as you pick the poem up and read
I've got to cut you out of my life, but it'll be me who bleeds
You deserve better than I can offer
I'd give you the world, but i'm unable to offer that Much
Depression kidnapped me and locked me up
And each punch it gives me, hits stronger than a shot of Vodka
The love will always be there, its just hidden beneath a sea of pain
You touched me in a way, that I'll never be the same
I'm a damaged rose with just one petal left
I need my angel to live in order to bring my devil death
I'm not strong enough to love you while I fight depression
I just hope you see this as me protecting you & not as rejection
I don't want you to be around to see what I'm struggling with
You're the one I'll hold dearly, even if you're not who I'm cuddling with
I wrote the words down that didn't need to be said
You can treasure them or rip this piece of paper up
I'm sorry, But depression told me that I'm not good enough for your love
I just wanted you to know, even though depression said no words need to be said
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AMALINA: THE QUEEN OF SHEBA
To the Queen of Sheba.
Unraveling of your thesis and your folklore
To devour your whole body in form of study
Zipping the raw facts in the mind's lobby
Trying to digest them, stew over them
As I reach for my wine glass stem
So I let them simmer on the back-burner,
The knowledge of you is never in conclusions
The whole of you: regurgitate all in discussions
Diverse shades of you cooked up in explanations
Hoping they do not seem half-baked from head to toe
Your eyes were glittering jewels that seized my soul,
Take me to Sheba and witness my ecstatic reign
And your dry ground be wet with heavy rain
To wash away your clumsiness and depression
And give your life sense of homeliness and expression
Sail with the westwind to blow you ashore
Right at the lake of rough diamonds,
The kingdom of King Vick the Solomon
To drink from the ocean of wisdom
And bask in the affectionate comfort of Cupid
Having being shot afar in the Queen City,
The Grenfell Tower couldn't shield you from these arrows of love
Emanating from the base of Lagos City,
The City that never sleeps and never seek pity.
VickWizzy
Vick Manuel Poetry {VMP}
Copyright © 29th Aug. 2017.
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Would you still love me tomorrow if I changed?
If I told you I had an illness would you still feel the same?
If my depression came back, would you still care?
Would you still love me tomorrow if I got in an accident that left me in a wheelchair?
Feelings change daily and people get hurt
I'm giving you my all, but do you know the worth?
Do you understand how hard it is for me to open up?
I've had some exes who laughed and found pleasure In how badly they left me broken up
If I went out, got attacked and was left with a knife wound
Would you be by my side, or think "I need to leave him and start a new life soon?"
If I defended myself in a fight I didn't start
Would you think I'm no longer worthy of your heart?
Are you able to differentiate between right and wrong, good and bad?
Are you happy with what we've got, or are you focused on what you'd love to have?
Would you love me tomorrow if I was in a car accident and wasn't able to walk again?
Would you help me through it, or would we never talk again?
Would you still love me tomorrow if I changed?
If I told you I had an illness would you still feel the same?
If my depression came back, would you still care?
Would you still love me tomorrow if I got in an accident that left me in a wheelchair
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It's just me and my shadow tonight
I've been thinking about you a lot today
You found me just as I lost my way
Wearing my heart on my sleeve meant Cupid couldn't get the aim with his arrow right
I put my pride down so I could say this
I've had people come and go, but you're the girl I'll always miss
You cross my mind often
My heart still hurts and it feels like time's stopping
I know I'm to blame because I pushed you away when I was in a bad place
It's not even like I was in the club doing the typical lad ways
I just couldn't deal with depression and a relationship at the same time
You moved on and became happy so the pain's mine
Depression had a hold of me I couldn't get out
Depression told me that you were best left out
So I ended up missing out on the greatest girl I ever met
I hope we speak again, but if we don't, you'll still be the one I won't forget
If I could go back I'd have made you my wife
I hope we reconcile one day, you'll always have a place in my life
Even though you're not here right now
I miss you Chantal and I'm shedding tears right now
It's just me and my shadow tonight
I've been thinking about you a lot today
You found me just as I lost my way
Wearing my heart on my sleeve meant Cupid couldn't get the aim with his arrow right
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Her smile is a part of me
I have been in depression
All this long while
I have been so lonely
All this time
I have been waiting
all this while
I have been so patient
All this season
Until you came across my way
with those smiles of yours
Oh what a light
Oh what a smile
Baby you killing me softly
Her smile is a part of me
I have been on a long search
All this days
Alot girls along the way i have meet
This time past
None is bright as you
I have been on doubt
All this period
Now you bring a smile
From your smiles to my ugly face
Your humour makes me feel safe
I once needed an emergency now you are my medication
Her smile is a part of me
The night is short
When you lay by my side
The day is sweet
when i listen to your voice
You always know the key tone to my joy
So i swear to always be your happiness
Everytime you smile
I feel so blessed
Everytime you speak i
feel you so deep
i see am in to you
As you are in my heart
Her smile is a part of me
No you no smile
No you no joy
No you no happiness
For i have been in depression
All this long while
I have been so lonely
All this time
I have been waiting
All this while
I have been patient
All this season
Until you bless my soul
With your smiles
And now i have a reason
To smile forever
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Lonely boy whose heart doth dream,
While tired and weary of sailing upstream,
Of a lover to share this course;
And for love to bud early and not in old age remorse.
Lonely girl crying tears of pain,
In shame she seeks refuge outside in the rain;
Isolated from the world she perceives,
Constrained rightly by her fears she believes.
Lonely boy whose heart doth woe,
Of whose life has seen much sorrow;
Though joy he has known here and again,
Depression, it seems, has stayed his constant friend.
Lonely girl confusing true love
Friends or lovers –
She knows none of the above
Desiring to know them both well,
She must first defy her usual shell.
Lonely boy whose heart doth now see
Now works through his pain to be set free
In taking new and uncertain steps forward
Only faith can assure him of his future reward.
Lonely girl now loves herself
She has come to terms with her personal wealth;
Once anxious to receive any type of acceptance
She now knows what self love is.
Lonely boy meets lonely girl perchance one day;
Upon this encounter she suspends his dismay;
And for her, he personifies the end of her fears;
For this, they had prayed ceaselessly over the years.
Lonely boy and lonely girl are alone no more;
They’ve become one and decided to explore
A world of new possibilities to mutually share;
Indeed, they’re getting there together.
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The bridge of death
There is a famous bridge
Some where out there
This bridge is use to blood
Yes the blood
of the innocent depressed
is not a stranger to this bridge
It a bridge that end misery so
Quick
For those in search
of an escape root out from reality
The bridge of death
Their is a famous bridge
Some where out there
The shadows of death
Is no new thing to this bridge
The stains of innocent blood
Is no new story to this bridge
The brutality of depression
Is the quick ticket to end up
On this bridge
With out no mercy
The confused soul jump off
This bridge to end
Their grief
The bridge of death
There is a famous bridge of
Sorrows every where
The ugly ness of poverty
Drives the many opress
Close to this bridge of calamity
Where they end up to end in
6feet
What a life
Beautiful yet complicated
The bridge of death
Life is a beautiful place
Only if we knew it source
The source of life is not base
On sucide
Either is it better with self murder
Is not an easy task
When all that is supposed
To make us strong
Is the reason of our grief
Is never a play
When all we live for
Goes away so fast
Right in front of our eyes
It not a joke when we hold
On to the unknown with fear
So when life hits you so hard
Be hold on with gratitude as
you meditate on positivity
Where life cant push you to
The bridge of death
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You had all of the love I was unable to express
I pushed you away, because depression had control of my mind
I was unable to give you the feelings I wanted to share
Sometimes we meet the right girl at the wrong time
I treasured you but I was unable to open the chest
I wanted to build with you, but I didn't want to offer what I had left
I was battling demons that wouldn't let me have love
You offered me your hand, but I had a bad touch
When depression is standing in front of you, it's hard to see
Someone as beautiful as you shouldn't want someone as scarred as me
I've thought about you daily, so I can't even say my heart is free
I put the pain in my poetry and make it a work of art to see
You kept all of the secrets that I never told you
But if I couldn't hold my own thoughts how could I hold you
I couldn't let my dream girl get me out of my nightmare
I pushed you away because I was scared of how much I wanted you right there
It's been almost 5 years, And it's something I've been struggling with
You're the one i'll Hold dearly even if you're not who I'm cuddling with
I found the girl of my dreams just as I lost my way
I guess I just have to accept you're the one who got away
You had all of the love I was unable to express
I pushed you away, because depression had control of my mind
I was unable to give you the feelings I wanted to share
Sometimes we meet the right girl at the wrong time
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Every guy has that one girl he can't forget
Every guy has that one girl he wishes never left
Every guy has that one girl who he wishes he could repair things with
Every guy has that one girl he'll always miss
We get accused of being emotionless, but you're about to see a mans heart cry,
For some reason, we have to mess things up to see where our hearts lie
Miss her so much even the nicest day looks like a dark sky
When I miss a girl, I sleep around and won't let my Guard rise
Females are better with emotions and knowing how they feel
We tend to hide ours, while females are good at showing how they feel
We don't usually realize how we feel until its too late
I thought being broken hearted gave me the right to cause heartbreak
There's always that one girl we wish we could have another chance with
But great girls will already have a new man to dance with
I pushed Chantal away due to my depression
She's gone for good and I've learned my lesson
You can't choose when you meet a person
Sometimes the best people come in at the worst time, and don't see your best version
Pay the price for your mistakes, but the hurting is free
I understand why she's gone, it just sucks that Chantal didn't get the best version of me
Every guy has that one girl he can't forget
Every guy has that one girl he wishes never left
Every guy has that one girl who he wishes he could repair things with
Every guy has that one girl he'll always miss
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I don't always text you back because I'm not available emotionally
When I push you away, it means I want you close to me
I've been hurt so much, I'm unable to love like most
I can't always text you back, so I understand if you Want to go
I can only hold you for so long, because I need my space
We can write our chapter, but it'll take a long time to complete a page
Depression has me as a hostage, everyday I'm at war with myself
I've felt more sadness than happiness, my heart has been broken more than held
I thought I had the right to play girls because my mother was never there
But now I realise when I made these girls suffer, it was unfair
Every day I wish I could go back to my younger days and not cheat
But how could I commit knowing I was giving them a heart that bleeds?
I think of the perfect things to say but I don't know how to say them
I've never seen love, so I'm unable to display them
I want to be able to give you all of me, but I'm always reserved
It's impossible to give someone your all when you've been hurt
I want to provide you happiness and less problems
But running away from my broken heart is your best option
I've came to the realisation I'm destined to be alone
I try my best to get it right, but I always end up getting it wrong
I don't always text you back because I'm not available emotionally
When I push you away, it means I want you close to me
I've been hurt so much, I'm unable to love like most
I can't always text you back, so I understand if you Want to go
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