"The Suicide of Henry B. Damned!"
Between the edge of secrecy
and seething brink of lunacy
there went I to the very deepest
darkest part of me!
I preyed upon my bleakened soul
to bring an end--this was my goal
to every thing that keeps me breathing
deep inside of me!
But in the darkened night of it
I pained--and then I flenched a bit
and what it does to keep me going
is my mystery--
Before the end that was my cause,
the cutting edge it slip--I pause!
my hesitation's left it beating
keeping life in me!
Within it--my own misery
I bring sorbented hope in me
to end this cursed life defeating
all the will in me!
And blackening my mind, I show
the blade just where it has to go
to cut the very heart that's beating
cursed life in me!
(the SHADOW knows---ha ha ha HA HA
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet
Categories:
flenched, adventure, confusion, courage, dark,
Form: I do not know?
Relentless hearts sleeping estranged for the night,
Running from the truth, and shedding tears along the way.
From the very beginning I was there, and like a circus you put on an act.
Through space and performance the blank empty stage stood, and I was there alone.
Im forever yours, faithfully will I be is what left your lips,
just to be regretted down the road.
I wonder what made you say that?
Now it seems like we are two strangers,
not speaking, not gazing, not holding, no recognition of the past memoirs.
I fell for you, opened up to you,
I let everyone who tried to slip in test you.
You fell for the bait and hooked to the line, yet still I stayed.
When I first cast a glimpse at your face, I saw a dream of wonder,
Now that dream that made me strong,
Has turned into a nightmare that tears at my heartstrings.
What is left to say about the realization I discovered?
You were not ready for a relationship ever after a year.
Feelings were tossed in and minds were boggled.
You flenched at the mere thought of commitment.
I cant seem to get over exactly how strong I was,
To bring myself to question you,
To let you go.....but I did.
Categories:
flenched, confusion, forgiveness, hope, lost
Form: Free verse