Best Toxic Relationship Poems
Your ocean waves have,
Beaten me down,
Across the rocky shore,
As I lay facedown,
Thinking about our lore,
How nothing I did,
Seemed to even the imaginary score,
Nothing I ever did,
Seem to matter to you anymore.
My stomach will always be,
Too soft for you,
My presence will always be,
Too grating for you,
My love will always be,
Too much for you,
I could never be,
Enough for you.
So break me down slowly,
As you go,
Hold me softly,
To your soul,
I couldn’t be enough for you,
But neither my dear can you.
Being ignored,
Was all I had ever known,
So you became my home,
While I weathered a mythical storm,
Leaving me forever forlorn.
So break me down slowly,
As you go,
Hold me softly,
To your soul,
I couldn’t be enough for you,
But neither my dear can you.
All the daggers you threw at me,
We’re meant for you too,
They cut right through,
Leaving you,
Bleeding black,
From an open wound.
So break me down slowly,
As you go,
Hold me softly,
To your soul,
I couldn’t be enough for you,
But neither my dear can you.
Coffin lungs unhinge a chest open bare,
fragile skin ripping thin as bat membrane-
flutter in waves of vapor, from the heart that beats itself,
exhuming an illusive space...
defined by all that never was.
The only promise left unbroken,
held against all petty wills,
is the nothingness that eclipses the tangible-
contoured by chaos, it stands tall and futile,
leaving no shade for the shelter of lost dreams.
And so let the old void fill the new,
where Only Hope's clumsy shadow filters in,
and Fear blows every breath of whim,
Asphyxiating in this open cage,
for too long I chose to stay and wait
for empty promises to take,
and take,
and take.
Both of them name-call each other,
never seems to end...
It's food to them; they feed on it,
this heedless, thoughtless trend.
You are so fat just like a beached whale,
you are such a loser, you always seem to fail.
Told you-your so fat, why don't you lose some weight?,
you say this cause you're skinny stick, understandable you hate.
Why do you say this- you are a silly pea-brain,
you're stark raving lunatic and nothing but a pain.
Hopeless and so lazy- why don't you get a job,
a dime a dozen, now shut your garbage gob !
Always at each other whilst toxicity a-blotches,
yet, baby can't say anything though hears it all and watches.
I need you to need me,
So I can be happy.
I just want to help,
Let me love you,
Let me care for you.
Please,
Don't hate me.
I just want to make you happy.
I’ll be yours for as long as you'll have me.
Forever, infinity,
You’ll be my always,
For as short as that may be.
I’ll be your dime piece
For as long as you’ll love me.
I promise,
I can make you happy.
No, please don’t leave me,
It’ll probably kill me,
Knowing my help wasn’t what you needed.
That ruins me,
I’m so sorry.
I’m sorry I wasn’t enough
To make you happy,
To make you love me.
I loved you with all I had
And you STILL hurt me.
I thought unconditional wouldn’t hurt me,
But, codependency has me by the throat,
In a choke hold.
You’re my forever.
I thought,
As I put you on that pedestal.
Little did I know that would
Completely destroy me
And belittle the happiness within me.
Your mind is like an ocean
Beautiful, yet unpredictable
One minute you're caressing me with gentle waves
The next you're drowning me in whirlpools
I don't want to get sucked in
But your mind intrigues me
I never know what to expect
Tidal waves? Tsunamis?
Right now I feel a gentle breeze
The sun dances in your eyes, reflecting the crystal clear waters
But is this just the so called "calm before the storm?"
I want to know you
Help you
But whenever I try, your eyes cloud up
The beautiful ocean I love so dearly turns into a tempestuous sea
And down I go, sinking under the weight of your rage
Like a sunken ship filled with cursed treasures
I take these faults and make them my own
Bury the curse deep inside of me
And bring back up the gold and jewels, presenting them to you
In hopes of calming down the sea
and it always works
The tempestuous sea turns back into the beautiful ocean I love so dearly
Once again, the sun dances in your eyes
reflecting the crystal clear waters
But every time I reach the bottom, touch the sandy ocean floor
I leave behind a pearl
A piece of myself
A piece of my soul
Are you worth it?
I'm not sure
Is getting to know you, helping you, worth losing myself over?
Are you worth my pearls?
Once again, I'm not sure
Perhaps I don't know because I'm lost at sea
Floating away, blindly following you away from the shore
Stuck in an endless loop of sinking
Leaving bits and pieces of myself behind
Down on the ocean floor.
LOVE FOR A STRANGER
How can I love a stranger?
Just when I laid my eyes on him
Before even talking to him
I had an immediate connection with him the moment we met
A connection so strong that I was drawn to him in a way I never felt before
As the days turned into weeks and weeks into months
I experienced a love so deep, so strong yet so complex
Just when I thought the world has nothing left to fuel the fire a stranger appears
My flame burns more intensely than before
It is staggering how you affect me
Please do not let this end.
I do not want this to stop.
It is funny that someone who was just a stranger month ago can mean so much to me now
Everything was going so well until you complete changed
Everything I was afraid of happening, happened
Our love slowly changed into hate
You claimed to love me but in the end you were just using me
You started to put me down
Made me feel like I can not do anything
Made me feel bad about myself
You think you are always right that whatever you do is the right thing to do
you made me feel it is me that is wrong and that I am always wrong
You treat me so good one day and make me feel like I am on the top of the world and the next day you act like I do not even exist
You always want to use me, manipulate me and take away my freedom
I did not know what to do
I had never gone through anything like this
It confused me
It made me want to cry, scream, let it all out, because it was killing me inside
I believed it was his way of loving me
I said I was happy to be his girl
If only I knew those words were not my own
I realized if it is destroying me then maybe It is not true love
I was setting myself on fire to keep him warm
I am worth more then excuses.
I am worth more then this unhealthy , disappointing situation.
I did not want us to become strangers again but You left me no choice
I watched us grow
From strangers to friends
From friends to lovers
And then to strangers again
We began with a simple
'HI'
but ended with a complicated
'BYE'
I was oblivious to the fact
what is toxic,
When I stumbled upon toxic,
amazing voice,
looks decent,
beautiful thoughts we shared.
then poison spread.
Eff around
And find out.
Freedom don’t come easy.
The steel bar resort
Ain’t no place to be,.
But, eff if I know,
I ain’t ever been to jail.
Should have been,
But I got lucky.
Toothpaste on the walls,
To hold up the memories.
Watch how you talk,
Or it’ll be your back against the wall
And you’ll be just someone’s memory.
One hour outdoors,
Privilege ain’t easy,
It’s the first to go when you get thrown in iso.
Phone calls,
No go.
Letter are your only plug
To the outside world.
They’ll forget about you,
Might as well let go.
Nah, bro,
Family is forever,
Only friends come and go.
Just kidding,
When you’re a woman beater,
You’re left with no one
To showe for.
Rot. In. Hell. Bro.
Triangulation strangulation
can you live up to the competition
add gas lighting and narcissism
a very frightening composition
Muster up to the cluster B
find yourself discarded like a soiled sheet
devoid of compassion
lack of empathy
once you really see
past the screen
the mask has slipped
and so many have peeked
now you panic
validation you need
so you pray on young
dumb nieve and weak
seek out a victim
to bleed dry and supply your need
your needs for weed dont come cheap
pull the supply and see the demon freak
neurotic psycotic rage and crazy speak
implant viral seeds a vile display
and then you leave.
I always thought I was the moth, desperately trying to stay in your light no matter how many times you swatted
But now I see, I was only drawn to your light because it had been mine all along and you'd stolen it from me
Sore shoulders
Rough nightmares
In my sacred pillow
An unexpected message
From the past
Under a new name
I feel the hair on my neck tingle
I'm being watched
An autumn has passed
So much has been done
So much cannot be undone
I wake in fear
Exhale in relief
The weight has
Already been lifted
My hands aren't tied
To a detonating bomb
I rub my wrists
Free
But weirdly uncomfortable
To not have the
Handcuffs of lead
on my wrists anymore
Please, I beg
Leave, at once
His eyes froze me
As his words cut
Me deep
Leaving scars
On my skin
Save me
We can create miracles
He whispers
Pick me up
Pull me around
Once again
Drop me on the ground
Aches with pain
The only true pleasure
Riding on her back
To bury this treasure
Pearls and daimonds
Left as grains of sand
Now she fits
In the palm of your hand
Addicted and left wanting more,
She stays
But only to seek his true core
She digs and digs
To find no bottom
Her hands now scarred
From how she fought him.
Picking up her pieces
Slowly gluing them back together
Staring at the ground
Surrounding her, the stormy weather.
Looking up
With but a barren face
She goes.
Her dignity leaving no trace.
Let me down
And all will be fine
Pick me up again
And this time I'll shine
He started off patient,
He used to be kind,
What she didn't know?
He told her pretty lies.
Anything, everything
he knew would capture her
like some prize to be won.
He got her with charm.
He smiled, played the card.
'Vulnerability'.
Went for the heart
she wore on her sleeve.
Held it in his hand
and crushed it on the spot.
He won it fair,
but his was elsewhere.
He told her pretty words,
as a compulsive liar would.
Said she was the one
even as his heart went far,
to someone else
he too hurt.
With lingering eyes
and that goddamn smirk.
He asked for a break
just to use her like nothing
as every compulsive liar,
he showed remorse,
apology,
regret,
sorrow.
None of it was real.
He touched her,
rejected when she refused.
A walking red flag
she chose to ignore.
At the first END,
he came running back,
knowing she'd take him,
no questions asked.
Soon she would see,
he only ever used her.
But not soon enough.
In debt,
emotionally tied,
exhaustion became her
until finally she could
no more.
A final ending
to the boy who treated her
like she was his mother,
rather than a soulmate
or significant other.
The love remains,
but if she stayed,
resentment would become her,
And she's better off kind.
Living in the sunless cold hutch of till death do us apart, sits a chipping soul.
Never had he thought she did be a blotch of many shades.
Spitting and pouring scorn on his dreams of a happy home.
“What? Are you even a man? Your mates are out there...”