You Wanted the Truth
you want to know me, you want to know the truth
but i honestly dont think i can handle telling you
things are blurry and spinning again
the razor blade used to be my best friend
we've been apart for far too long
i thought i changed the tune of this song
but in the end it will always be the same
happy on the outside
but inside, dying because of the pain
i'd be lying if i told you that i was okay
even though it seems ive survived today
im scared and lost
willing to pay, without knowing the cost
trying to get out of this place
trying to fill the empty space
hoping that one day i can find some kind of peace
wishing for some kind of release
trying to fill my siblings shoes
but in the end, turning back to drugs and booze
getting so lost in the music
trying so hard not to lose it
trying to hide the tears
all the pain and all the fear
trying to be some one else
trying to escape this hell
so much to give, but unwilling
how are these wounds still healing
it seems like it would be over now
i want to do these things, i just dont know how
there's so much more to me
too many scars that you'll never see
dealing with the same hell, just different devils
its the same game,
just a different level
using a smile to tie together the parts
one person, two hearts
all these things, i try to protect,
but in the end i know ill never be perfect
you wanted to know the truth...
i still cant bring myself to tell you
Copyright © Katie Livingston | Year Posted 2013
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