You Saved Me (From Me)

Somehow it's like you don't exist The stars above are missing you You've been away for oh so long And I'm drowning in your absence, Just like drowning in quicksand I can only stop the struggle To avoid the complication You're gone, away You can't believe How the fire you lit so long ago In my soul In my heart Can eat me up when you're not around We're planets apart; So close, yet so far And when you're roaming another world Carefree and smiling Unaware of the turmoil Your absence causes Here I lay, drowning in your memory No-one to keep me company But myself So I sit, and think… and just exist And the magic you have on me starts to fade The beauty and meaning which you brought To my life Seem to die away Into pictures of Utopia Abstract euphoria They fade into the charred night sky Weighing heavy on my heart tonight Like a coal ocean breeze, Or a cave painting, of what used to be And I start to remind myself… of myself I see my ugliness, stripped naked Staring into the mirror No longer saved, rescued, hidden, covered By your beauty… My pity, my shame… my agony Bare, unclothed No longer lifted by your confidence, Your pride, your pleasure My blasphemies, lies, my defiled soul No longer sanctified with the purity, the faith, The truth you plunge me into This is my ugly truth - - - I am myself now My old, pitiful self I'm the monster I was running away from Before I crashed so hard… into your arms But it was the best crash Fate steered me into My hero My savior… Now, with no shelter I am a pit Of everything I used to be There's no running away No angel to fly me skywards To lift me and drown me into the sun To save me I'm left to sink in a muted sea The sea of tears I cry for you I cry when I miss you… I never thought I would And before I run out of air, I just want you to know… You brought the meaning to my life You colored all the black and white Without you I'd be a careless soul You are the one who made me whole You saved me from me From the killer that I was And if I could sing, to you, my final words I'd say this… You taught me the art of human passion You taught me to love myself so deeply And then, I'd be able to love someone else You taught me to smile when I wanna cry That there are no limits— Not even the sky Thank you I miss you I love you…