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You Saved Me (From Me)

Somehow it's like you don't exist
The stars above are missing you
You've been away for oh so long
And I'm drowning in your absence,
Just like drowning in quicksand
I can only stop the struggle
To avoid the complication
You're gone, away
You can't believe
How the fire you lit so long ago
In my soul
In my heart
Can eat me up when you're not around
We're planets apart;
So close, yet so far
And when you're roaming another world
Carefree and smiling
Unaware of the turmoil
Your absence causes
Here I lay, drowning in your memory
No-one to keep me company
But myself
So I sit, and think… and just exist
And the magic you have on me starts to fade
The beauty and meaning which you brought
To my life
Seem to die away
 Into pictures of Utopia
Abstract euphoria 
They fade into the charred night sky
Weighing heavy on my heart tonight
Like a coal ocean breeze,
Or a cave painting, of what used to be
And I start to remind myself… of myself
I see my ugliness, stripped naked
Staring into the mirror
No longer saved, rescued, hidden, covered
By your beauty… 
My pity, my shame… my agony
Bare, unclothed
 No longer lifted by your confidence, 
Your pride, your pleasure
My blasphemies, lies, my defiled soul
No longer sanctified with the purity, the faith, 
The truth you plunge me into
This is my ugly truth
- - - 
I am myself now
My old, pitiful self
I'm the monster I was running away from
Before I crashed so hard… into your arms
But it was the best crash
Fate steered me into

My hero
My savior…

Now, with no shelter
I am a pit
Of everything I used to be
There's no running away
No angel to fly me skywards
To lift me and drown me into the sun
To save me
I'm left to sink in a muted sea
The sea of tears I cry for you 
I cry when I miss you…
I never thought I would
And before I run out of air, 
I just want you to know…

You brought the meaning to my life
You colored all the black and white
Without you I'd be a careless soul
You are the one who made me whole

You saved me from me
From the killer that I was
And if I could sing, to you, my final words
I'd say this… 
You taught me the art of human passion
You taught me to love myself so deeply
And then, I'd be able to love someone else
You taught me to smile when I wanna cry
That there are no limits—
Not even the sky

Thank you

I miss you
I love you…

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