You Raped My Soul

I slowly trusted you… I shared the depths of my heart and soul with you… You allowed me to attach to you … Like a newborn fawn…to it’s mother… I drank deeply from your heart of love, tenderness, gentleness, kindness and acceptance… You covered me with a blanket of grace after the shame of my childhood… I swam in the pools of your sea moss eyes… I delighted in the deep desires you awakened in me… I shared the depth of my struggles with you... And then when my pain and chaos of longing was too much… I attempted to snuff out the candle… The candle in the wind would not be blown out… Left in the shadow…was the pain of awakening to life again… But you were gone…you abandoned me…you blamed me…you labeled me…you betrayed me… The blanket of grace was ripped off my naked body…and replaced with shame and pain of loss…. My mental health was not your concern …you traded your heart of love for a heart of fear… You did not know me…you did not love me….you died…