You Found Me

Feeling under pressure
Lost a little by pleasure
Due to what I did on my leisure
I’m sorry, God, I let you down for sure

Dealing with the side effects now…right now..
I’m the one that’s a horrible individual anyhow

I can’t keep it all inside
One of these days, 
It’s going to bubble back up
And it’s going to overflow…
Like this guilt…this guilt…
Lord, am I strongly built?

I knew you were troublesome from the start
I knew you were the one that tore me apart
I knew better than to trust you with my heart
I knew you were quite a darksome piece of art

I committed so many nasty sins…I committed so many abominable sins 
It’s not even funny anymore…
I try to forgive myself, but it’s as difficult as walking on needles and pins
It leaves me breathless and sore…

I’m sorry…I apologize greatly…I really do, Father of truth
I gave in to the Father of lies…
I gave in to the heartless goodbyes
I am like rotten teeth that doesn’t have a healthy tooth 

I lost it all in vain –
It feels like it at least
Am I really sane?
I am this hideous beast…
Without his beauty…
Without his eternity…

I am shaken to the core…to the core…
Who is there for me to simply adore? 
Think of me as you spend your days 
Away from me…doing your own ways

I pray I don’t lose my faith today…what can I say?
Keep me in your prayers day by day
I’m crying out tremendously for something more 
I want to be a success just like everybody else…
I’m trying to be stronger than what I was before
I know, on my leisure time, I did wrong...sin sells…
Keep me in your prayers day by day
I was addicted to sick desires that lead me astray

I love You…I don’t show it enough, that’s true 
I hate Satan for all he has done and will do…

Feeling under pressure
Lost a little by pleasure
Left unsure as usual, what’s new?
Left unsure as a fool…time wasted and its consequences seem cruel…

But, actually…honestly…
It’s somewhat fair…
Free me and you’ll see
That I have so much wisdom and experience to share…
Nothing compared to Christ though
Send me happiness when I’m low

I’ve fallen deeper in trouble, I dare say
I’m calling for You, but no answer or any cure…
My prayers and cries, please don’t delay 
I’m looking around for You…I will surely endure…

You found me,
Lifted

Copyright © | Year Posted 2019



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Date: 7/17/2019 4:21:00 AM
It's so good to let words out...I feel the struggle for a balance too...You poured it out here...Well done...
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Date: 7/17/2019 9:59:00 AM
Yes, it is so good indeed! Thank you~ have a splendid week! =)
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