You Don'T Even Look Back

You don’t even look back, as I stand here in the rain, I can see your shoulders shake as you walk towards the train, In-my-mind I see your mother, your walk, your hair the same, But it’s you this time who’s leaving, will I see you again. And even today as you walk away my mind is starting to fade, I have to face the fact that that won’t change, Even if you had stayed. I remember when you took your first unsteady little step. Tiny shoes that gave you freedom I never told you that I kept, Your first time on the school bus or the dollhouse that you wrecked, And all those times that you got hurt, I hugged you as you wept. At mealtimes as you grew older I would ask you to say grace, I remember when I taught you how to tie your lace, When you told me of your first love, the glow upon your face, Some past events I can remember, new memories I misplace. But even today as you walk away these memories are starting to fade, I know I’ll eventually lose them all, Even if you had stayed. You’ve been leaving me, little by little, I’ve known it for some time, I didn’t want to tell you nor show any outward sign, I didn’t want to see your pain, or you to witness mine, I’d like to hold on to the memories, ’till I see you again. So someday when you do return and come to visit me, Will you look at me with tears in your eyes, And ask, - Daddy can you remember me