Without Happiness

There's really nothing else I can do When I'm out here, looking for you I have been looking out for you, my long-lost dear But, I fear you took me for granite for many-a-year There's a giant bump in the road And I am in need of Your abode Without happiness and joy, I'd be this fretful little boy I've lived through storms of fright Just to be right here with you tonight I've gone through so much hardship and learned to accept life bit by bit Just to know what it's like to earn your friendship and get a grip of wit Now, I can no longer zero in on happiness without you here I raise my weary brow in mere bravery from ear to ear I am concerned with you and want the best for you too You aren't around that often and it makes me feel rather blue You took my heart and made it your own You shook my inner core and was my backbone You have shown me oh so many signs and wonders I rely on His miracles and blessings that never injures Catastrophe strikes when ignorance is in the picture I want to know beyond my capable knowledge My most-longed-for future is almost here, not a blur I need your loving hand to guide me if I'm on the edge Shelter me with your shimmering shadows Comfort me with Your words of wisdom Whirl away my wretched woes and higher my lows I am broken down and becoming numb Grief-stricken I don't know why living life doesn't make sense to me And once again, You will shower me with hopes that disappear vainly Oh, I'm feeling fine thank you very much I'm just longing for your heavenly touch If only you'd understand where I stand If only you'd lend me your helping hand Then, you'd come to know who I truly am I know that I am just this worthless,  roaming lamb Deliver me from desolation while I dwell in the pit of darkness I want to be a believer of the Most High, so I can have happiness I'm glad the worst is over There's more yet to come I fear Will I be left alone unsure? I want Your joy to give me cheer Without happiness, Who will I be? Who will I become? Will I be on the right track or be led astray? Without sadness, Where will my poetry be? Will I be left to seek a Kingdom that's so far away?