With My Eyes Closed

"My closed eyes shall forever see, the happiness you brought to me”

My sadness wears a smile
when my eyes are closed,
keeping me from seeing
what waits outside
on that lonely pathway
leading through the life
we always talked about sharing

Our song plays in my mind
and I hear it calling 
in the darkness,
the melody is soft and drifting,
echoing through the room
in the sweetest harmonies of
you and me

The taste of your euphoric kiss
still lingers upon my lips 
as I dare not speak
for fear of losing the sensation
that caressed me in a feeling of ambrosia,
desperate for the moment 
to be unending 

I encounter your eyes staring, floating
in my grateful mind,  
mahogany planets
hypnotically orbiting this vast space
that engulfs me, remnants of a dream
eclipsing an autumn moon
we once called ours

And as I hold the poetry you sent, 
I do not see the words
of destined love,
but caress the paper
folded neatly to fit 
snuggly in the envelopes
addressed to me,
never to let go

Still I cannot look because 
when my eyes are opened
they are filled with tears
for the endless days ahead 
without you here,
but closed I can see 
what we had together

Reminding me that if I 
had never had you in my life,
the beauty that we shared
might not have been and without you 
my sadness would not be able to 
wear this smile remembering how it felt, 
to be loved by you
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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February 10, 2017 at 1:16 PM
WoW! Chris, you poured your heart into this write. It's evident how much she meant to you. You expressed the love you all shared very well in this sad yet beautiful write. I don't think I could walk away from someone who loved me like this. A without a doubt seven and a fav:-) Alexis
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February 13, 2017 at 12:10 PM
Thank you so very much Alexis for your always kind words for me. I appreciate you my sweet friend.
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October 28, 2016 at 3:33 PM
This touched me deep for many reasons...Any woman would love to know..the man she loved still see those envelopes...and letters once sealed to him..I hope the poet tells her and not just leave a msg in a Poet and his poetry...
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October 28, 2016 at 4:38 PM
Thank you again my sweet friend. Well, maybe someday I will, but for now poetry is the outlet for these feelings and emotions that are so deeply me.
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October 28, 2016 at 3:34 PM
A fave.
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October 27, 2016 at 4:15 PM
that's so bitter sweet. like chocolate... without the sugar complete... you have a talent... to ride the waves.. of brightening days... until you crest...apon a lovers display...hey...
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October 27, 2016 at 4:41 PM
Hey.. Thanks so much Holly. I appreciate your kind words. Yep, a little bittersweet. :)
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October 26, 2016 at 3:46 PM
It resonates dulcet tones of a nostalgic love, sad yet poignantly blissful.
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October 27, 2016 at 4:40 PM
Thanks so much Paloma, I'm glad you liked it. I didn't see this. Sorry for my tardy response.
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October 26, 2016 at 12:24 PM
Such beauty resonates in your sadness
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October 26, 2016 at 1:14 PM
Thanks so very much my friend. Happy/sad, it seems I am on a rollercoaster of emotions and I am more of a Merry-go-round kind of guy.
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October 26, 2016 at 9:38 AM
Love that word ambrosia, remember the group from the seventies called ambrosia? "That's how much I feel, feel for you baby", great song!
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October 26, 2016 at 9:45 AM
I remember them fondly. Thanks for bringing m back to that time once again.
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October 26, 2016 at 9:35 AM
Wonderful writing Chris, she obviously left her indelible mark on your heart, the longing and hurt and joy are simultaneously felt in this masterpiece!A7 and a fave
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October 26, 2016 at 9:43 AM
Ok, lets try this again. Thanks so much John, she sure did and this is how I try to look at it, though the sadness is heavy at times, there were many more good times than bad and feeling loved I such a wonderful experience. I appreciate your kind words my friend.
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October 26, 2016 at 9:14 AM
Wow, this one is amazing, Chris:) if I were the one and reading this, I would come right back crying:)
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October 26, 2016 at 9:40 AM
Thank you Jo, I appreciate that so very much. Though the sadness is painful, I will never allow myself to forget what it felt like when smiles were blooming. No one can ever take that away from me.
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October 26, 2016 at 7:47 AM
WOW!!! You are so good my friend! Enough to make a straight man gay I would say. Ha. Well done Chris
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October 26, 2016 at 8:25 AM
Ha, that's funny and the first time anyone has ever said that to me. :) Thanks Rick, I appreciate your encouraging comments.
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