Wishes To Mother

I wish I had gotten to say goodbye You are missed so much its for you I cry Your passing was too sudden to quick to understand Never again to proceed with future I had planned Losing you was the worst hurt I have ever had to endure I know we will be reunited when its my time I’m sure I long to see you again to be with you once more A piece of my soul will be missing forever more Grief has consumed me making my outlook bleak Taken every ounce of strength to stop me being weak I never got to tell you how much I really loved you Never got to evaluate all that we've been through Nor did I get to savour precious last moments If only I had someone who could act as a proponent; To show me how to voice my feelings of hurt and loss To fill the emptiness my soul now has at any cost I not only lost a mother I lost a friend as well I’m barely surviving this distraught emotional hell If only I could see you one more time I’d say how much it hurts Instead of keeping the feelings inside and hidden from the world.