Why Do I

I can’t find the words to tell you how I feel You confuse me, you excite me You make me feel like something But I know I’m alone and alone I feel safe that way But somehow I feel threatened I can’t handle that I won’t go there I feel my world closing in on me And the bonds grow tighter and tighter And the air I breathe is desperation For the only way out You talk about being more than friends And yes you are right Perhaps that is my fright Perhaps that is my fear I wondered and I pondered Since the last time we spoke What was it in me That let my fear provoke When you told me before That someone you met Meant something to you And you where happy as yet I was happy for you And really pleased too That some female had touched Some deep part of you But now as we chat I feel so much drawn in But I don’t want to go there And I create all this din So often it seems That we spark off each other With words or expressions Or simply just nuther So much of me wants To simply be friends And hold one another In words that are wins And then there is that part That knows its unfair That questions the truth And why you are there You have every right To just be upset Cause that is the part That shows no respect More and more lately I just feed and feel That emotions are something That step in and steal But honey my babe, I need you to know That some part of me holds you With memories untold Its hard to say bye But I feel like I must Cause just take a look I act like a nut I’m going on and going on Cause its hard to finalise Its hard to just think This is my last goodbye