Why Didn'T You

Brittney Tyler The mind blowing devastation sets in It's the subtle feeling of inadequacy Mixed with the feelings of anger and betrayal. Why didn't you love me? I turn over every detail of us in my head Questioning every decision I made Wondering what I did to push you away. Why didn't you love me? All the notes and gestures of caring The cooking and smiling and laughing None of it was enough, none was good enough. Why didn't you love me? I can't figure out what I did so wrong Why couldn't I just be enough for you What about me is so lacking and unfulfilling. Why didn't you love me? And all I want to do is wallow in my darkness To forget about all of this and not feel My whole everything is torn and hurts beyond compare. Why didn't you love me? You moved on so quickly and effortlessly Smiling with no care in the world Living life with no regrets. Why didn't you love me? I'm sitting here faking a smile Pretending not to care or to hurt But inside my soul is crushed and dying. Why didn't you love me? So I will keep a smile on my face Pulling myself out of the devastation and into the sun And forgetting about you and the pain that you caused. Because I deserve someone who will love me.