Why Am I Here

Why am I here?

I walk around this life
, around my surroundings, full of self-doubt, 
I wonder why I am here, for nobody really interacts with me, I try to smile, 
To be nice, give my opinion, to be genuine, all I really want is a friend. 
Yet I am still met with silence, they turn their back, I lower my eyes as to not be seen. 

All my life I have been ignored, maybe that’s my fault, I didn’t reach out, for I knew that I 
Would be ignored, why reach out, when they will only laugh and pretend to be nice, 
Sometimes I feel as though My heart Is in a vice grip, waiting for the next person to
Come along and squeeze it with all their might, I mise as well give up the fight. 

I resort inwards as to protect my feelings, I can’t stand much more pain, I just want it to 
Stop. My only way of relieving the pain, the hurt is resort to self- injuries behavior, it’s not 
Like anyone would care, They don’t see me anyways, unless they want something from me. 

Again I ask myself, why am I here in this big cruel punishing world anyways?  Would I be 
Missed if I left? My words, my love, my tired sore arms I have lifted to many to give a
Big heartwarming hug, only to have them tell me No..  My only friend again I say is a
Pen and paper, my thoughts, my silent tears, have been built up for way too many years. 

I ask you, can I now depart this world?
Copyright © | Year Posted 2015

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Sankey- Lewis Avatar
March 9, 2015 at 8:07 AM
"Why am I here" is touching, yet honestly revealing; after the rain, sunshine I wish you. Welcome to Soup's garden where we blossom and add joy to one another. I wish you much blessings, and a pleasant day.
Donnay Avatar
October 15, 2025 at 8:56 AM
Hello again Iris E. Sankey- Lewis. im back. after ten years ive decided to start writing again..
Hunjeri Avatar
March 1, 2015 at 9:09 PM
Hi Jennifer. I've two poems iv written that I'd love for you to read. 1. Suicide suicide 2.To the teenage girl. I'll also be sending you an email by soup mail. Bless you
Hunjeri Avatar
February 27, 2015 at 12:19 PM
Jennifer, I've been through what you are going through. But pen and paper saved me. All my years in highschool, I asked myself those questions like you do. Big hug from me!#7
Donnay Avatar
March 1, 2015 at 2:38 PM
Thank you njeri hunjeri, and all if you for your replies, its just that so many times, a pen and paper are not enough.. I'm so alone, I feel like I'm not good enough anymore!! Help!!
Pinet Avatar
February 27, 2015 at 12:01 PM
This is a sad jolt to our emotions reawakening the pain of a poet. Emile. #7
Romaine Avatar
February 27, 2015 at 11:01 AM
Hey Jennifer, stopped by for a visit. Such a profound sense of longing and sadness. But please cheer up!! You belong to us now and one of the reasons you are here is to share your amazing gift of art with us. Dry up those tears now - it's time to make new, loving and amazing memories. Be Blessed, Neva
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