Why?

Let me tell you a story when i was barely five my father went and left us with just a faint goodbye. Told me to my face he didn't care how i felt It was all about him now so forget anyone else. He was leaving us for another woman and kid Like we wern't good enough for the life that we lived. And time again like the flow of the winds I blamed myself for all this and how it came to an end. But why dad? Why leave? What did we do to? Break our hearts to the point we can't breathe. But why dad? Was it something i said? Why are you gone? So many unsaid feelings that never will get said. And as the years went by he barely knew me growing up My school, my grades, dislikes, award shows, never showed up. At the court hearing you didn't even fight for me Now you wonder why i have these devistated tendencies? And how you made snide comments about my life Never understood me did you even if you tried with all your might. And the knife you used still resides inside my chest And every now and then you turn it a never ending rest. But why dad? Why leave? What did we do to? Break our hearts to the point we can't breathe. But why dad? Was it something i said? Why are you gone? So many unsaid feelings that never will get said. Days when i was on the playground i cursed the other kids because there dad's were around. Now i know it wasn't there fault you turned out the way you did, it's just now that i found. That really all the tears and time i spent on you And all the pain and heart ache that you put us through Would i be the person i am now if you were here? Or would i be just like you and would not care? And when you die i dream of it An empty church and now worshippers reside in it I bet you'd finally get that blow to your ego dad Knowing nobody tried hard to be there that bad. And when they lay you to rest and put the tombstone down the only thing we'll share is the last name that's on the cold dark ground. Just remember it was your choice not to know me And now that im a father i thank god That i learned not to be you but to be me. But why dad? Why leave? What did we do to? Break our hearts to the point we can't breathe. But why dad? Was it something i said? Why are you gone? So many unsaid feelings that never will get said. But why dad? Why go?