Why

Why cant I get over what you've done? Acceptance they say will help, it happened over twenty years ago. Why did you not think? How your actions and decisions have destroyeed my heart and mind. You were young and lost, you admit it was wrong. Why oh why am I LIVING WITH YOUR ACTIONS? I hate it, I hate you yet I loveyou. The shame and anxiety. The strangeness of it all. I am inocent yet why am I doing my own headin? People ask me about you, I hate answering their questions. Why did she leave why did she go I guess I guess i'll never know. To see you change so drastically I find the whole think quite gharstly. Dont tell me how to feel dont tellme im wrong. The past will stay with me till the day that im gone. They say the past makes you who you are, it was the shock and the truma. I know you suffered too yet part off me can never forgivce you. Im not wrong it's me who suffers night after night. Remembering the awful things no kid should see, I feel ashamed and embarrassed. This happened to me and it still lives on inside me. You were supposed to me my role model to be their yet you were out with him. I was so lonely I became a strange and anxious child. You never asked how are you feeling it wasa always about you. Yes you broke up the family and it as tore my heart apart.