Why

I cry every night, everyday is So Lost... I drift away in this Sea of Pain... You said you love me, never will you hurt me, never will you lie to me, and that you'll always be there for me... Where are you now??? Why have you Forsaken me??? With all those promises you made, all those sweet words to lead me into your temptation.... You captured my heart, won me over and then abused my love I gave thee... All and all, it was all a trap... Each and every I Love You was a joke... You laughed at me, you got my heart, and it makes you happy, knowing I'm so LOST... So lost and so much PAIN... And you know I'm so sick, Because, I still love YOU... I try to give you everything, done anything you asked of me... And it was never good enough... It is gone, I thought our love was SO TRUE... All I was for you was an object, something not useful, But something to use.... And you took advantage of me, So many times... Knowing how much I LOVED YOU... Now that I'm here, here in this grave you began to bury me slowly, with each kick of dirt in my face... And still I love You... But that does not matter... You're free, you got your use out of me... Now I'm DEAD, DEAD and LOST... Still I love you, Still I'll DIE for You... written 07-28-2000 in CCJ