Why

As I lay in my bath, the tears just fall. Contemplating suicide; should I journey at all? Persevere people say. Just pray & go on. So I pick up the knife; throw down my phone. What do they know; my life isn't theirs. Should I swallow these pills & just sleep instead? I stare in the mirror; my reflection is weak. At times I feel invisible to love ones I see.
The world all around seems cold & dark, alone in this room just me & my thoughts. As I lay here silent, the picture I see. Visions  of beauty that use to be me. Then I think of her smile, so innocent & sweet. My granddaughter Zoe will truly miss me. Why do this to her, she's barely made three.
So I play myself a song, as I sit here & shrink. Is anybody lonely? This use to be me. Just a few weeks till graduation, so I put down the blade. I am kind of proud of the accomplishments I've made. Don't think of the cons review all the pros instead. Visions of family begin to dance in my head. Put away anger & put away strife. These demons keep taunting me; but I must continue to fight. You're stronger than moments. You're a daughter to the light. Remember God loves you. Soldier on with your LIFE....
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Date: 8/15/2020 1:35:00 PM
"It ain't over until the fat lady sings!" Who could miss the encore? Aloha! Rico
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