Whole Life Ahead of Me

The people around here Say that because I'm different In the sense I'm academically inclined And seem so calm and smart, That I hold potential to go further in life Than others, such as my peers. But really: I can't help but feel like I am going nowhere, The present has always been Just the fleeting time of me thinking, "The present to me is dull, The past to me is self-pity, The future to me is something I envision constantly. But now even I hold doubt in myself And content in not pursuing living As society knows it." I like feeling somewhat Above everyone else, Yet I know what it feels like to come down To earth with "my fellow man". It's sobering, relieving to know That no matter the amount Of certainty or motivation: People are good and bad in their own ways. Little to no one really has the right To judge stereotypically: You're at home, a bit chubby, glasses, etc. I feel settled now, thinking I got all my life To save up money and finally Going around the world Or perhaps a few countries.