Who Am I

This morning arrives as day is signaled by light The stars yawn and retire as the day becomes bright Gone is the safe harbor the shadow of night Morning brings yet another chance to do things right Within me is the most complex yet simplest of memories and thoughts Ones that can bring joy the light or sorrow within the dark Not a place always of happiness not one usually sought it's where inner beauty is casted as well as moments where breaths are caught Today is no different then those times in the past I'm still wound tight with my thoughts running so fast I'm drawn into my wormhole cacooned with the only things that last Memories.. my life the good the bad the shadows of my past Moments that brings a heart to dead stop So strong you cant help but cough Then in a blink a pop They are pushed aside as the next rolls across Times that when lived couldnt be deciphered thru the chaos The decisions the chances the choices the loss Some came out of no where as if in my life they were tossed And then there are those that came at so high of a cost. Within this cocoon this wormhole of a past Deeply I sit watching again as each memory comes to pass Memories when there made or remembered tend to always cast A shadow or wishful thinking from a time that didnt last.. Days will be dark and gloom will reign Others will be so precious yet so hard to obtain For love does not stand alone nor does it always remain There can never be a rainbow until after its rained So I look upon all that makes up me The roads I've traveled the blessings I see The harshness of truth the cold brutal reality My eyes moisten as I bow my head and bend my knees Wondering why God had decided to make me.. With all the mistakes the moments taken for granted The times when blessed I only raved and ranted Never cherishing the life I was handed A life lived while wishing death be granted He makes no mistakes this I know I just wish what He saw in me would finally show Older I get the days swiftly go And still I wander the direction I don't know I just don't want to fail Him and not be what He intended Ears are open my shoulders been lended My patiences has been tried possibly overextended Please help me find what You have always intended