While I Was Thinking

While I was thinking I catch breath & inhale life I strife to break bread and avoid the lights that flash blue and red instead I make ends meet by meeting ends to set trends I just want life to love me as I love it before my life ends. I'm addressing the stress yet make less more and don't realize the lies im being fed instead so jaded by the hated I embrace the space im given and livin the life I thought was memorable until forgotten was my dream I seem lost in space...so, will I will my endeavor so clever so quick to never call my bluff n pull the lever n cut off ties like sever? Or call out rhymes like past times as people drop dimes and I sniff lines of notes like valentines I embrace it, taste it, lace it as I turn my back then never face it as uh chapter in the past I cast a dark loom over the groom n give my blessing to the music that once was my doom 2 consume my mind like monsoon & get swept into my black tomb I lay here and wonder, will I ever come home soon?