Where To Wander

Feel more than free to take a quick tour into my mind's eye
Then, you'll find that you're on my mind and I don't know why 

Dare to wonder Where to wander
Dare to wonder What I ponder about, my dearest
Dare to ponder over me over yonder 

Care to share? 
You seem so unsure...
You Vacantly Stare
Everything and everyone - all aaahblur...do I love him or her?


Squander your time with me
No where to run or flee?

Don't worry, you're unforgotten
Don't fret, you and I aren't rotten 

Forget me not 
Regret me not 
Not left to rot
I'm just a mere thot
I was treated like a robot 
And, well, all for naught
Naught
Naught...

Numb off of the Lithium of Lament
I'm in awe because I'm your flaw
You're the sky and I'm the cement
I get stepped on and you get admired from afar like a liberating law

I keep trying,
But I'm frankly dying
I stopped crying
The moment you started lying
Love yourself for real
Make me feel your appeal
My heart is made of titanium and steel
It's no big deal that you're like an onion that's hard to peel 

I'm your arduous ark 
I'm your children's park 
Wander in my world if you dare
Wonder with your pupils, don't just stand there and stare

Turn up the mesmerizing music that's so epic 
Just a hair - put on something therapeutic 
I'm scorched with flames of uncertainty 
I'm as useful as scratch paper but you threw me out in the trash bin...as of lately 

In vain, I get driven insane
By the thoughts of you 
My energy remains to drain
In your hands of disdainful rue

•_~
Don't.
Look.
At.
Me.
^o^
Please.
Forgive.
Me.
=_=
Don't.
Walk.
Away.
>_<

Feeling like that crud in your eyes when you first wake up
Feeling like your shoes when you stomp on the ground
Seeing people pass by my house merrily or in a serious manner
For a matter of fact, I see you in the crowd of strangers and all your screams a whisper...a worthless, muffled-up murmur

Mirror my pain
Send your healing rain
Because I'm sick of this rejection 
Of your genuineless affection... driving me in a dark lane - a false direction...left in the-the abandoned store section 

Wondering where to wander 
Where do you wonder?  
Why do I ponder?
Wondering what to say
Speechless and led astray 
Where.
To.
Wander.
What am I pondering about?
Roaming another route...
Yes of course I am thinking that
You're the rat - a ridiculous target - and I, your crazy furry friend that so happens to be a cat ...your predator that is hungry for its prey, its weak, feeble and helpless victim 

Run-on sentences flood my mind 
Laughing slightly by the tickling sensation in my heart that I cannot find 
I beg to differ the difference between right and wrong in your point of view 
You...the other side of the coin... You're contrary to what I'm used to...in my bubble of busted hopes, but chasing after yiew
Yiew
Yiew dare to wonder
Where I wander?
Away from you?
No I'm after you if only you knew
Or even had the slightest clue

Torture me softly
Love me tenderly
If you loved me,
You would find me
Bond and find yourself,
Even if you're the giant and I the elf
Please.
Accept.
Me.

You hate all,
Except me
I love all,
Except you 

Where to wander off to...?...
Hm......mmm......
Dare to wonder 'bout my clue?
Well I'm sick with dem luv floo
I sneezed on the beat
And it got on fleek
I breathed in and out and fell right back on my feet
You're arrogance isn't close to meek
Keen joy drugged my nature
Drunk on the liquor of lament and these hardships are too much to bear or to even endure

But, I witness fear
Waiting for you to disappear
Reappear, cheer 
Get away from here, my dear
My where-to-wander deer
Don't fear, healing's near
Clearly, you don't care 
Trust fall I did and you didn't play fair
Let's play truth or dare
I dare you to care and be a happy pair
Not gonna happen I'm afraid
You're another type of shade

You can't...
Mend this tear in my heart
You can't 
Lend a minute year to my ripping apart

Naturally, you're my darling devil
You, oh my word, gave me heavell
Seven days a week I think of you
One minute a year you think of me...it's like we are fighting this competitive, unfair duel

Together, we went far
You're the street and I'm the car
You drove on me emotional recesses of rage and desire; you faked a smile and I was once your devoted mentor 
You, the angsty passenger...the awful offender...gave me a lecture like my worst-best professor...

I know these words don't mean much to you
But...where I wander off to I may never know where my wicked wind blow
You put me in danger in all aspects of life...you were like the aftertaste of eating a burnt stew 
Nevertheless, I found you a mystery unsolvable and an entertaining show 

I'm doing well and all
Someone's banging at my wall
Bemused...amused...abused...messed up in the head
Distracted...jaded...faded by fear...hanging on chandeliers of cheer and dread


Liberty wins my heart and I'm depressed to see your true colors that is an unconditional work of abstract art
Destined to be at my destination as soon as possible -
In your arms, not in the gravitational pull of the deathcart...starships were meant to land as well as fly right from the start...I gave you my mind and heart 
There's this sensation I feel that's making me feel gullible...unable to move on from this uncanny dilemma I'm in unless you make the decision to Change - now that's applausable 

Now, for a change, I feel this sensation beyond belief 
I have a hangover of hatred and hellbent grief...far from brief relief

Copyright © | Year Posted 2015



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