Where These Horses of Sanity Run

The places i go Are different then the places i have been I take to the reigns of pain I try to control them Yank them as hard as i can But they don't stop the horses of rage They symbol all the running i have done With no logic and no goal The prints go no where I circle myself Round and round Confused and complaint to the ways of my up bringing I am the man of the house i need to take care of them But i have not for years and years My judgement clouded by jealousy and mistrust I cant think clearly at all when anxiety takes control The roles i play senseless and unemotional I am like a child with no real guidance I search continuously for the reason the origin of where all this comes from Mentally challenged i never could think i was Truth be told i do see that i tend to stray from any type of rational thought When my mind goes a wild into trances of unknowing It hypnotizes my heart to believe all is common I need to recognizes these faults and try to improve where these horses of sanity run.