Where I Go To Die
Today hurts like the rest of days
This morning I cried invisible tears
Looked at my son and felt remorse
How someone so innocent could be given someone like me
He smiles sweetly and I reply back
To sleep he goes
Now everything is quiet
Except the darkness in my head
I'm so tired of the shadows talking to me
Their whispered tongues scrape at my mind
Leaving foul thoughts that stink of intention
The clock is louder
My cellphone keeps ringing and hmm.............
When I searched for company I was alone
Twenty four hours of drowning in my hell
I have no jokes to laugh at
No good reason to smile
When I think of my child
And what I can offer him
I break so hard
I'm scattered into a trillion pieces
Everyone walks by and hears the crunch under their feet
But no one stops and picks me up
Even if they did the glue is all gone
Mirrors I hate so much
They show me nothing just me
I scream so loud that my soul wanders in impatience
So with these pills I thee wed
Tired of the ******** I hear in my head
I collect my things and give them off
To people who are found while I am lost
I dry swallow all thirty one
Instantly I feel the power and I succumb
I lay back in my bed slow
Tell my son I'm sorry and close my eyes low
Immediantly I transform to a darkened dream
The place where I belong no one can hear me scream
The Bloodfairies come to greet me
Their wings shuffle and shake like a tree
No words they say at all
They just escort me down the hall
To a room that carries my name
Where I shall sit in shackles of my shame
I now never can leave here
But I wouldn't want to that would be my fear
Making me come back to this earth
NO, no I left !this universe was my curse
Reaper comes to take my hand
Banish it of the flesh and skin
Sitting with a clenched mouth
My jaw is wired so I can't shout
Peace covers me head to toe
Now this life is over I'm in no need of a soul
Take it and run away fast
I give my soul to the Reaper at last
Here in death I will wait
I pray the Lord my life I'll take
Copyright © Shane Solomon | Year Posted 2014
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